About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	i'll never wanna be me for now... Tuesday, September 11, 2007 / Tuesday, September 11, 2007 ♥ for the upteenth times... I' looked at the clock on my screen that is ticking away... is just 12:39AM... time seems to be moving a little too quickly than ever. I dreaded tomorrow. But I am looking forward... to ______ . The future seems bleak for me lately. I can't see any directions and a sense of insecurity seems to wrap around me all the time. I post a mental note in my head to remember to live. to breathe. I want to walk down this path with a dream if I could. ever. find. one. I. The heart is struggling to overcome many. and perhaps what's holding me strong is our hands clasped so tightly together. I think... there is a monster in me devouring me into pieces. occasionally I behaved like a crack addict deprived of crack as I let my thoughts run wild. I laughed and I cried sense-less-ly. I might keep myself in a bottle and put myself away for a while so I wouldnt be me for now. And what I need now is a pair of good shoes (SOON). so I can RUN freely.. @by chemicalrose. Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	i'll never wanna be me for now... Tuesday, September 11, 2007 / Tuesday, September 11, 2007 ♥ for the upteenth times... I' looked at the clock on my screen that is ticking away... is just 12:39AM... time seems to be moving a little too quickly than ever. I dreaded tomorrow. But I am looking forward... to ______ . The future seems bleak for me lately. I can't see any directions and a sense of insecurity seems to wrap around me all the time. I post a mental note in my head to remember to live. to breathe. I want to walk down this path with a dream if I could. ever. find. one. I. The heart is struggling to overcome many. and perhaps what's holding me strong is our hands clasped so tightly together. I think... there is a monster in me devouring me into pieces. occasionally I behaved like a crack addict deprived of crack as I let my thoughts run wild. I laughed and I cried sense-less-ly. I might keep myself in a bottle and put myself away for a while so I wouldnt be me for now. And what I need now is a pair of good shoes (SOON). so I can RUN freely.. @by chemicalrose. Back to top, Babeh !	Friends Aaron Catherine Calista Cheryl Chiu Daren Edwin Esther Fate Fidel JieYi Jessica sweetie-pie Jerald Joyce Josephine Kelly Kimberly Leon Min Michelle MinYee MingWei Nirwan SiowTing ShanShine SupaJo Sylvia superjoygasmic Tendzil Freak Trish Valerie Curious Cupcakes Bentos Archives	BenCool Services BenCool Services Credits Layout done by runningtoyou. with the help of my portfolio's icons over here.
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