About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	N is for Nostalgia. Monday, September 08, 2008 / Monday, September 08, 2008 ♥ (been web-caming lolx, act emO, anyway i wld v much like to post up some webcam pics with jooo... but ya....but scared i might be strangled la* LOLX.) i'm thinking if i will get to finish this post? it seems hard to type a proper post when there are just... too many things going on at the same time. I' might jus slot this post into my drafts. and never let it see daylight. em' exhausted now... so bad that i'm practically typing away with half my eyelids closed. had a bit of drink last night...with him. we finally hit the sack at only 4am. Zzzzz aNyway. first thing first... Happy Lantern Festival ! f :))) mooncakes. i had my fair share of goodies this month. *with Goodwood park hotel durian mooncakes yum from korkor, and other snacks. 4-5 boxes of mOonCakes stacked at home. AND we're going chi garden later :)))** happy nah.. family...korkor.korgf. da jie. me.bf. and mummy... yupppps September love.birthday babies: Leon's sep 11. okie.. after being friends for so long... this is prob the first gift from me to him :) bleahz.... and i'm happy he love it so mucH! hmm... gosh. i counted...6 yrs of friendship alr. hee. from the small lil' heartwarming chat... is sweet to know that many things remain unchanged... like the beauty of the friendship and a person who knows u well. em touched Sister Kelly's 21st Bday white rose as symbolizm of elegance and purity of a love for my childhood bestie. :)) though many things have changed and even at times, we barely even meet anymore. But on that day. at that moment. when i see my happy girl... i know i love her :) Working Days: yest...slogging away.... sushi buffet with minyee. ahhh... chewy junior. ah bao delivers goodies* i love mini surprises :) playing taxi at work? noti.. :P jus for a while.. dinner treat from office boY. with the crazy babes. LASTnight, that wave of nostalgia hit us( dear dear n me)... when we open this dusty treasure chest of love. we started squealing in excitment, laughters as we page through...these sweet delights. :) albums of our photos, the first time we met, the first letter i wrote to him, the first xmas we spent, the KL trip, the Bangkok trip, Genting, ...the friends we have... they grow up with us. grow up with our relationship. there's a mountain of love letters we exchanged when i was at my adolecsent age of 15. the kind of letters we wrote 'at that time' : this line that goes...agar-a-tion from my memory yest: "recess now........." then ending off with "... ok, teacher come back liao. miss u. 5121314" well... the letter was dated year 2003. vintage man~~~~. and there's a collection of Princess movie tix during our 'poor' school days, recalling the slide show aDs and seats that felt just like sbs bus seats. 15 going almost 22 soon. well... 8 yrs of 'stuff'... my dear.... is the man who has walk with me through the years. and none could ever replace such memories. yr my best friend :) the bestest of all... who knows every single bit of me. every sin. every past. every good. every happiness. every joy. every tear... and still love me unconditionally....always. Last week: WallE with Kai so long never meet le :( beng dropped by... treat me donut. yum yum. Sep07 the silly buta did something bad to herself again. dear was harsh at me... for not listening to him. for always not listening to him. sigh. it feels so hard to carry on sometimes... there's just too many times i'm gonna fail myself. i'm always out of control. and i dont like myself to be like this. i wanna be strong. i wanna give love to many..... :(((( i know it may seems bit difficult to understand me.. many have alr abandon me calling me crazy, perhaps ppl find it hard to attend to me. my erractic moods which they claim as sensitive, unreasonable, or even AA. if i could. i wouldnt be crying n tearing till my throat once bleed when i was in pri sch. i may be sick... but i'm definitely not crazy. hurling such words at me... is enough to break my frail little small heart. i wish that people i love. can give me some time. and be patient with me. i'll be good. i know he is there with me. i will get some help. and dear will be with me. god will be with me. and i'll show u a piece of my rainbow when i'm ready. he got me a super-chio-bling bling personalized bracelet. when we were in Kluang but of cos we have to ar- with the salesgirl bcos i wanteD the rabbit and flower locket but she wouldnt do it / couldnt do it. and other stuff he got me include the purple yankee cap. couple tees. from a teary eyed me. totally transform to a cheerful princess. TADA *PS: u can see almost ALL my pics revolve ard my workplace. so if u miss me, u know what to do right? ^_ wink** i'm sleepy... suppose to do my Ass... but now... i think i shd sleep? Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	N is for Nostalgia. Monday, September 08, 2008 / Monday, September 08, 2008 ♥ (been web-caming lolx, act emO, anyway i wld v much like to post up some webcam pics with jooo... but ya....but scared i might be strangled la* LOLX.) i'm thinking if i will get to finish this post? it seems hard to type a proper post when there are just... too many things going on at the same time. I' might jus slot this post into my drafts. and never let it see daylight. em' exhausted now... so bad that i'm practically typing away with half my eyelids closed. had a bit of drink last night...with him. we finally hit the sack at only 4am. Zzzzz aNyway. first thing first... Happy Lantern Festival ! f :))) mooncakes. i had my fair share of goodies this month. *with Goodwood park hotel durian mooncakes yum from korkor, and other snacks. 4-5 boxes of mOonCakes stacked at home. AND we're going chi garden later :)))** happy nah.. family...korkor.korgf. da jie. me.bf. and mummy... yupppps September love.birthday babies: Leon's sep 11. okie.. after being friends for so long... this is prob the first gift from me to him :) bleahz.... and i'm happy he love it so mucH! hmm... gosh. i counted...6 yrs of friendship alr. hee. from the small lil' heartwarming chat... is sweet to know that many things remain unchanged... like the beauty of the friendship and a person who knows u well. em touched Sister Kelly's 21st Bday white rose as symbolizm of elegance and purity of a love for my childhood bestie. :)) though many things have changed and even at times, we barely even meet anymore. But on that day. at that moment. when i see my happy girl... i know i love her :) Working Days: yest...slogging away.... sushi buffet with minyee. ahhh... chewy junior. ah bao delivers goodies* i love mini surprises :) playing taxi at work? noti.. :P jus for a while.. dinner treat from office boY. with the crazy babes. LASTnight, that wave of nostalgia hit us( dear dear n me)... when we open this dusty treasure chest of love. we started squealing in excitment, laughters as we page through...these sweet delights. :) albums of our photos, the first time we met, the first letter i wrote to him, the first xmas we spent, the KL trip, the Bangkok trip, Genting, ...the friends we have... they grow up with us. grow up with our relationship. there's a mountain of love letters we exchanged when i was at my adolecsent age of 15. the kind of letters we wrote 'at that time' : this line that goes...agar-a-tion from my memory yest: "recess now........." then ending off with "... ok, teacher come back liao. miss u. 5121314" well... the letter was dated year 2003. vintage man~~~~. and there's a collection of Princess movie tix during our 'poor' school days, recalling the slide show aDs and seats that felt just like sbs bus seats. 15 going almost 22 soon. well... 8 yrs of 'stuff'... my dear.... is the man who has walk with me through the years. and none could ever replace such memories. yr my best friend :) the bestest of all... who knows every single bit of me. every sin. every past. every good. every happiness. every joy. every tear... and still love me unconditionally....always. Last week: WallE with Kai so long never meet le :( beng dropped by... treat me donut. yum yum. Sep07 the silly buta did something bad to herself again. dear was harsh at me... for not listening to him. for always not listening to him. sigh. it feels so hard to carry on sometimes... there's just too many times i'm gonna fail myself. i'm always out of control. and i dont like myself to be like this. i wanna be strong. i wanna give love to many..... :(((( i know it may seems bit difficult to understand me.. many have alr abandon me calling me crazy, perhaps ppl find it hard to attend to me. my erractic moods which they claim as sensitive, unreasonable, or even AA. if i could. i wouldnt be crying n tearing till my throat once bleed when i was in pri sch. i may be sick... but i'm definitely not crazy. hurling such words at me... is enough to break my frail little small heart. i wish that people i love. can give me some time. and be patient with me. i'll be good. i know he is there with me. i will get some help. and dear will be with me. god will be with me. and i'll show u a piece of my rainbow when i'm ready. he got me a super-chio-bling bling personalized bracelet. when we were in Kluang but of cos we have to ar- with the salesgirl bcos i wanteD the rabbit and flower locket but she wouldnt do it / couldnt do it. and other stuff he got me include the purple yankee cap. couple tees. from a teary eyed me. totally transform to a cheerful princess. TADA *PS: u can see almost ALL my pics revolve ard my workplace. so if u miss me, u know what to do right? ^_ wink** i'm sleepy... suppose to do my Ass... but now... i think i shd sleep? Back to top, Babeh !	Friends Aaron Catherine Calista Cheryl Chiu Daren Edwin Esther Fate Fidel JieYi Jessica sweetie-pie Jerald Joyce Josephine Kelly Kimberly Leon Min Michelle MinYee MingWei Nirwan SiowTing ShanShine SupaJo Sylvia superjoygasmic Tendzil Freak Trish Valerie Curious Cupcakes Bentos Archives	BenCool Services BenCool Services Credits Layout done by runningtoyou. with the help of my portfolio's icons over here.
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