there is a reason why i am never staying home.
yest i got pretty upset. under such harsh conditions, i doubt anybody can study well. i hate clearing beer bottles in the morning. i hate cleaning of spillage on the floor or tables. but most of all, i hate hearing your shoutings and making ugly noises in the middle of the night when i'm mugging. i hate it when yr angry at nothing and saying crude words over nothing! i just wish u can spare a thought for me at times. and for yourself, really. if u drink that much and get so angry and angry...i was really afraid that might trigger some kind of heart attack. i was under immense stress last night when i finally felt i couldnt take it. i said " Enough". i up the volume of the TV to the maximum.carried my books and walked away to the kitchen. sat down on the floor and spread my sheets over the titles. i was exhausted,having to fight this kind of stress over the past 3 hours. it was 2 a.m (only). there was a long silence between me and him. the TV was making lots of noise. i couldnt care less but to distract myself from being upset. i read the ES notes to chap 14. finally cooled down after 20 mins but what felt like a moment of eternity. i walked back to the table. and sat beside him. he told me the show was good was good was good. i understand. i acc him till the show ends to a black screen. and i switched off the TV, the lights. and made him go to bed. by then, i wasnt that upset. i guessed i learnt not to take things too hard by now. but stress and anxiety often gets the better of me. i cherish and care for him so much... though some things will never change... like his alcoholic ways.

there is a reason why i am never staying home.
yest i got pretty upset. under such harsh conditions, i doubt anybody can study well. i hate clearing beer bottles in the morning. i hate cleaning of spillage on the floor or tables. but most of all, i hate hearing your shoutings and making ugly noises in the middle of the night when i'm mugging. i hate it when yr angry at nothing and saying crude words over nothing! i just wish u can spare a thought for me at times. and for yourself, really. if u drink that much and get so angry and angry...i was really afraid that might trigger some kind of heart attack. i was under immense stress last night when i finally felt i couldnt take it. i said " Enough". i up the volume of the TV to the maximum.carried my books and walked away to the kitchen. sat down on the floor and spread my sheets over the titles. i was exhausted,having to fight this kind of stress over the past 3 hours. it was 2 a.m (only). there was a long silence between me and him. the TV was making lots of noise. i couldnt care less but to distract myself from being upset. i read the ES notes to chap 14. finally cooled down after 20 mins but what felt like a moment of eternity. i walked back to the table. and sat beside him. he told me the show was good was good was good. i understand. i acc him till the show ends to a black screen. and i switched off the TV, the lights. and made him go to bed. by then, i wasnt that upset. i guessed i learnt not to take things too hard by now. but stress and anxiety often gets the better of me. i cherish and care for him so much... though some things will never change... like his alcoholic ways.