Every time I encounter new people, new events, new situations, new discoveries of the complex human beans and their complicated ways get me all enlightened again. I need to rant to keep myself sane and repeatedly tell myself to be be strong and have faith. At the same time, I'm getting used to the exposed facades of mankind or am I just too pessimistic? There's a hole I run to all the time, whenever I'm afraid or felt neglected or ignored or hurt, or depressed or gotten myself drunk or starving, I find myself back to him. I know I cannot rely on him all the time but I do like to and find myself really safe. I wanna get married so I can be sheltered by him 24/7. None other but him. Of course there's still god and good in this world that I would count on. Life's not eating me up right now, I like this pace and I like girlfriends. I love to play and I love this youth. cant help it that I'm always tired and is still a spoilt kid. how amazingly I own a huge spot in his heart. what is not to love about life? I'll get a list of things done soon, and get myself into a volunteer asso. as well etc, I hoped I can do some part in saving earth or contributing to society. love this sunny island really much (happy bday spore!) and really misses my family alot =]

I've also learnt something about myself through the words and thoughts from others. As far as my very 'outgoing' appearance, many guys find me cold and intimidating however, many have voiced out the changes in me over the years. hooooray*so I'm like more sociable and friendlier now. I also find that I couldnt suppress my emotions and they just appear so clearly on my face whenever I dislike someone (so how do i find a job in public relations? LOL*).

No matter how much we say that we dont judge people but in fact we do. *shrugs*

ps: Just 1 or 2 is enough to give me hope in life. Thanks CAT =] my crazy gf~~~~~ love* I'm so glad to find her in life... <3

Every time I encounter new people, new events, new situations, new discoveries of the complex human beans and their complicated ways get me all enlightened again. I need to rant to keep myself sane and repeatedly tell myself to be be strong and have faith. At the same time, I'm getting used to the exposed facades of mankind or am I just too pessimistic? There's a hole I run to all the time, whenever I'm afraid or felt neglected or ignored or hurt, or depressed or gotten myself drunk or starving, I find myself back to him. I know I cannot rely on him all the time but I do like to and find myself really safe. I wanna get married so I can be sheltered by him 24/7. None other but him. Of course there's still god and good in this world that I would count on. Life's not eating me up right now, I like this pace and I like girlfriends. I love to play and I love this youth. cant help it that I'm always tired and is still a spoilt kid. how amazingly I own a huge spot in his heart. what is not to love about life? I'll get a list of things done soon, and get myself into a volunteer asso. as well etc, I hoped I can do some part in saving earth or contributing to society. love this sunny island really much (happy bday spore!) and really misses my family alot =]

I've also learnt something about myself through the words and thoughts from others. As far as my very 'outgoing' appearance, many guys find me cold and intimidating however, many have voiced out the changes in me over the years. hooooray*so I'm like more sociable and friendlier now. I also find that I couldnt suppress my emotions and they just appear so clearly on my face whenever I dislike someone (so how do i find a job in public relations? LOL*).

No matter how much we say that we dont judge people but in fact we do. *shrugs*

ps: Just 1 or 2 is enough to give me hope in life. Thanks CAT =] my crazy gf~~~~~ love* I'm so glad to find her in life... <3