About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	while everybody is busy with their own lives... Wednesday, September 16, 2009 / Wednesday, September 16, 2009 ♥ I guess... people who cares will bother to care while people who dont will probably never ever. I'm not emo, nt disappointed, nt unhappy, nt depressed this time though I've been coping myself at home for the past one month. I truly believes my friends are all freaking busy with lives and I'm jobless and bored after sending in dozens of job applications that I've lost count and lost track of which co. I've applied to. It's okay... there's always hope and I believe in myself but what hurts the most is... for people having doubts in you. I'm not feeling down because I'm bored or lazing my everydays, but being stressed up by people ard me who constantly push me to the edge so I would do things faster or better and of course being poor worries me all the time. I'm poorer than ever but everyday I attempt to do meaningful things to make myself happier. I went for short walks alone, took the subway alone, ate alone, watch movies (online) alone and I feel great. I no longer have to feel emotionally attach to most friends and have them commited to be with me whenever I'm down...I cannot but admit that I always get affected by friends but right now I'm not anymore... bcos I've learnt to let go and accept changes all the time. When this fails, I will try to resolve, when it cant be resolve, I seek for others' concerns. I've learnt to be more independent, eventually we all have to grow up and I cannot cry for every friendship that hurts me... ( haha actually I'm jus kidding I will still cry to my bf if u say u dont friend me =D bcos this is me! I am 蔡慧婷！！哈哈） this is random but it got me thinking... LOL and since I'm so free: here my broz. and a special clique that grow over time and how much i love spending my childhood days till my adulthood with them.... though their gfs change over time but yah... haha sometimes we know each others' 'patterns' so well... my Broz & Bananas: #1 BF - Yang ( extremely loving, faithful, 100% good husband material, extremely afraid of tickles bcos 怕老婆！！scared of me! hahahah ) #1 Bro - Kai ( sometimes AP, temperamental, unique, sweet, faithful*, caring, funny, cute, trustable, likes skeleton haha, love jay zhou) #1 Bro - SoonPoh ( full of lame shit, bubbly, sometimes leak out secrets, like to make friends with my friends and as many 'cai' as possible, extremely helpful, smart, funny, like to eat high cholestrol food, gamer siao our L4d clan leader haha) #1 Bro - Alan ( funny, Pro salesman, love his car, also leak out secrets at times, gd friiend that will help u in times of trouble ) #1 Bro - Jackson (faithful, nice, smart, artist, like to flex his muscles, likes to knock the table with his canon, tall dark and handsome HAHA) #1 Bro - Ah Boon (wierd, smart, stylish, funny, lame, like to wear boxers, and seriously he loves hellokitty, likes to order teh bing ka dai not so sweet) #1 Broz friends - serhan, li hong, KJ PS: MY RC is selling bubble tea now =] PSS: call me and i'm always here. always. Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	while everybody is busy with their own lives... Wednesday, September 16, 2009 / Wednesday, September 16, 2009 ♥ I guess... people who cares will bother to care while people who dont will probably never ever. I'm not emo, nt disappointed, nt unhappy, nt depressed this time though I've been coping myself at home for the past one month. I truly believes my friends are all freaking busy with lives and I'm jobless and bored after sending in dozens of job applications that I've lost count and lost track of which co. I've applied to. It's okay... there's always hope and I believe in myself but what hurts the most is... for people having doubts in you. I'm not feeling down because I'm bored or lazing my everydays, but being stressed up by people ard me who constantly push me to the edge so I would do things faster or better and of course being poor worries me all the time. I'm poorer than ever but everyday I attempt to do meaningful things to make myself happier. I went for short walks alone, took the subway alone, ate alone, watch movies (online) alone and I feel great. I no longer have to feel emotionally attach to most friends and have them commited to be with me whenever I'm down...I cannot but admit that I always get affected by friends but right now I'm not anymore... bcos I've learnt to let go and accept changes all the time. When this fails, I will try to resolve, when it cant be resolve, I seek for others' concerns. I've learnt to be more independent, eventually we all have to grow up and I cannot cry for every friendship that hurts me... ( haha actually I'm jus kidding I will still cry to my bf if u say u dont friend me =D bcos this is me! I am 蔡慧婷！！哈哈） this is random but it got me thinking... LOL and since I'm so free: here my broz. and a special clique that grow over time and how much i love spending my childhood days till my adulthood with them.... though their gfs change over time but yah... haha sometimes we know each others' 'patterns' so well... my Broz & Bananas: #1 BF - Yang ( extremely loving, faithful, 100% good husband material, extremely afraid of tickles bcos 怕老婆！！scared of me! hahahah ) #1 Bro - Kai ( sometimes AP, temperamental, unique, sweet, faithful*, caring, funny, cute, trustable, likes skeleton haha, love jay zhou) #1 Bro - SoonPoh ( full of lame shit, bubbly, sometimes leak out secrets, like to make friends with my friends and as many 'cai' as possible, extremely helpful, smart, funny, like to eat high cholestrol food, gamer siao our L4d clan leader haha) #1 Bro - Alan ( funny, Pro salesman, love his car, also leak out secrets at times, gd friiend that will help u in times of trouble ) #1 Bro - Jackson (faithful, nice, smart, artist, like to flex his muscles, likes to knock the table with his canon, tall dark and handsome HAHA) #1 Bro - Ah Boon (wierd, smart, stylish, funny, lame, like to wear boxers, and seriously he loves hellokitty, likes to order teh bing ka dai not so sweet) #1 Broz friends - serhan, li hong, KJ PS: MY RC is selling bubble tea now =] PSS: call me and i'm always here. always. 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