About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	Thursday, November 19, 2009 / Thursday, November 19, 2009 ♥ i am so exhausted...but i have the need to blog this down for my spiritual fulfillment :] a short post to remind me of people i love... speaking of 人缘，i havent been that fortunate all my life... prob. i wasnt pleasant looking enough or humourous enough to get into cliques and even right now, friends come and go in my life. Two very special cliques remain at utmost importance in my heart wld be my broz and my porkies. Although sometimes I get hurt or feel rather left out because somehow We dont get to meet up often/ I have fears it just might not be the same anymore and i get into this auto depressive mood that drives me nuts. because 拥有 this kind of strong chemistry/love/friendship/sisterly feel... once 失去 will be of devastating impact on me. I guess I'm greedy because I want more, I dont like to be neglected... but tonight i blog this post happily because... god allows me to meet such wonderfully good, kind and lovely people who loves me and i shld never take it for granted. I shld always rem. this feeling of bless. *Porkies* (in the time-line order i fell in love w each of them) number. one porkie i knew wayyyyy back long ago on the northeast line while this *Onglishan /OngLaosai* LOL* was heading to her new cell grp and (met a guy who became her bf piggy now but this is not impt) luckily she knew me within 1st few mths of sch term and celebrated her bday tog in nov 3 yrs back. i have a dedicated bday post to her and video of me singing romantic song for her back then HAHA. Our story is as thick as a book, sometimes we hv small fights but so? it just made our r/s even more special and there are tons of her photos being pinned onto my chipboard. we have a special shot in bridal wear :) and i super love all our lesbian acts hahahhaa. my dear, i'm sorry i did not do anything awfully special for u this year... but i really hoped u like the mini party we had okay. it took us so long to meet up esp u. and i'm overjoyed whenever i get to spend that lil' time with u. it just rekindles all the sparks IreneCheongCCF* number. two porkie who is CRAZY!! my babe is fun loving and super nice to every single soul. she will never think badly of anyone or yah~ lol the kind who will break her piggy bank to buy ppl's gifts and suffer in silence LOL! one of the sillest girl that will go crazy and create havoc with me, always make me laugh and will always be supportive. On random day i was sad, She went str to MACD and get me a happymeal set with the toy and bought me starbucks drink when i was working. I love her somewhat msian/brulaysian slang, her colourful and natural ways. what else, she's pro at singing and pool zzz. and all her bling blings. I LOVE HER SO MUCH TOOO!!! *JooJoo Goh Mame Chan* number. three my JooJoo, mymilktea girl, my superwoman. ( i must really sing the song superwoman to her) the one who i nvr thought wld be my friend :) and then becomes my best friend HAHa. I fell in love with her on a train too! HAHa... i guess a random qns on food...got her rambling on and on in excitment. cough* she's smart, brilliant and super thoughtful and sweet. If i cry... I'm sure she'll drag me out of my home to slap and wakes me up from my depression LOL! she loves me alot and i know... so obvious* We shared a whole lot of tearful memories tog, I love how she rants abt her stuffs, runs up the stairs to get me hot drink and feed me when i was coughing in my sleep, loves how she uses her whole heart to take care of me time and time, loves how she knows me well and so讨厌, she can always sense when I'm crying.. and have seen all my good,bad and ugly sides. SEE... my girls are good and selfless people who give more than they take. god gives me so much so i must be really blessed. is i dont know do what good thing to have them alr. LOL* DIE also no REGRETs. choy* but yes... I have always grew up in being disappointed in friendships/ppl/love/family but now i see some light how life changes and kindness do begets kindness :) even though the time we meet have been so little but memories will nt fade, they have been etched in my heart so deep ... all the sweet and bitter :) ps: zzzz realized i owe so many pics...zz oh no! Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	Thursday, November 19, 2009 / Thursday, November 19, 2009 ♥ i am so exhausted...but i have the need to blog this down for my spiritual fulfillment :] a short post to remind me of people i love... speaking of 人缘，i havent been that fortunate all my life... prob. i wasnt pleasant looking enough or humourous enough to get into cliques and even right now, friends come and go in my life. Two very special cliques remain at utmost importance in my heart wld be my broz and my porkies. Although sometimes I get hurt or feel rather left out because somehow We dont get to meet up often/ I have fears it just might not be the same anymore and i get into this auto depressive mood that drives me nuts. because 拥有 this kind of strong chemistry/love/friendship/sisterly feel... once 失去 will be of devastating impact on me. I guess I'm greedy because I want more, I dont like to be neglected... but tonight i blog this post happily because... god allows me to meet such wonderfully good, kind and lovely people who loves me and i shld never take it for granted. I shld always rem. this feeling of bless. *Porkies* (in the time-line order i fell in love w each of them) number. one porkie i knew wayyyyy back long ago on the northeast line while this *Onglishan /OngLaosai* LOL* was heading to her new cell grp and (met a guy who became her bf piggy now but this is not impt) luckily she knew me within 1st few mths of sch term and celebrated her bday tog in nov 3 yrs back. i have a dedicated bday post to her and video of me singing romantic song for her back then HAHA. Our story is as thick as a book, sometimes we hv small fights but so? it just made our r/s even more special and there are tons of her photos being pinned onto my chipboard. we have a special shot in bridal wear :) and i super love all our lesbian acts hahahhaa. my dear, i'm sorry i did not do anything awfully special for u this year... but i really hoped u like the mini party we had okay. it took us so long to meet up esp u. and i'm overjoyed whenever i get to spend that lil' time with u. it just rekindles all the sparks IreneCheongCCF* number. two porkie who is CRAZY!! my babe is fun loving and super nice to every single soul. she will never think badly of anyone or yah~ lol the kind who will break her piggy bank to buy ppl's gifts and suffer in silence LOL! one of the sillest girl that will go crazy and create havoc with me, always make me laugh and will always be supportive. On random day i was sad, She went str to MACD and get me a happymeal set with the toy and bought me starbucks drink when i was working. I love her somewhat msian/brulaysian slang, her colourful and natural ways. what else, she's pro at singing and pool zzz. and all her bling blings. I LOVE HER SO MUCH TOOO!!! *JooJoo Goh Mame Chan* number. three my JooJoo, mymilktea girl, my superwoman. ( i must really sing the song superwoman to her) the one who i nvr thought wld be my friend :) and then becomes my best friend HAHa. I fell in love with her on a train too! HAHa... i guess a random qns on food...got her rambling on and on in excitment. cough* she's smart, brilliant and super thoughtful and sweet. If i cry... I'm sure she'll drag me out of my home to slap and wakes me up from my depression LOL! she loves me alot and i know... so obvious* We shared a whole lot of tearful memories tog, I love how she rants abt her stuffs, runs up the stairs to get me hot drink and feed me when i was coughing in my sleep, loves how she uses her whole heart to take care of me time and time, loves how she knows me well and so讨厌, she can always sense when I'm crying.. and have seen all my good,bad and ugly sides. SEE... my girls are good and selfless people who give more than they take. god gives me so much so i must be really blessed. is i dont know do what good thing to have them alr. LOL* DIE also no REGRETs. choy* but yes... I have always grew up in being disappointed in friendships/ppl/love/family but now i see some light how life changes and kindness do begets kindness :) even though the time we meet have been so little but memories will nt fade, they have been etched in my heart so deep ... all the sweet and bitter :) ps: zzzz realized i owe so many pics...zz oh no! Back to top, Babeh !	Friends Aaron Catherine Calista Cheryl Chiu Daren Edwin Esther Fate Fidel JieYi Jessica sweetie-pie Jerald Joyce Josephine Kelly Kimberly Leon Min Michelle MinYee MingWei Nirwan SiowTing ShanShine SupaJo Sylvia superjoygasmic Tendzil Freak Trish Valerie Curious Cupcakes Bentos Archives	BenCool Services BenCool Services Credits Layout done by runningtoyou. with the help of my portfolio's icons over here.
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