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off day;
my life seems pretty boring now. even though so busy working and meeting up with friends, i just feel that is not enough. caught "the break up" yest after work with beng, the show was pretty good but felt like crying half way thru' the show, thinking of him, our relationship, miss him alot really.. i cant stand ns life at all. hate it to the core.

i still go out with friends, busy working etc, why do i still so blardy bored... and uncontented with my life. it seems like so many things i wanna do and indulge in, but i feel awfully restricted.

haiz. anyway brought corgi to the vet today, have to pay 275 under my a/c. *diao*



i want to feel the sun.. and me.

(edited post)
blogger doesnt seems to be functioning properly.
very wish to post up the photos of the week but.. aiyer.. *

a hectic fun filled week.. i'm tired to death.
=) i'm pretty happy now..

today;
had so much fun with dear. finally went to east coast to eat hotcakes n big breakfast. he basically just sun tanned the whole morning, but i start to take care of my skin so no sun for my face and hair. lol..went to parkway but we didnt do much shopping. i did not even try a single clothing. but just had fun eating Yoshinoya having the complete set of salmon, beef, chicken and breaded prawns. ai..really eat alot but dont know why just doing simple things with him make me enjoy the whole day so much. and resting at starbucks enjoying my new all - time favourite "Hot steam milk with hint of hazelnut flavour" i'm in love with starbucks! =)
i miss him very much now. . . .

yesterday;
had so much fun shopping with kelly. . . nothing beats the company of my favourite girl =) no words to describe how i feel. just that we keep talking and laughing even till she left at pasir ris. i was still smiling and telling yang how happy i was.

here's the loot of the day;
*navy red killer heels with lacy straps
*a white tee shirt frm bugis street
*a pink spag from blossom
*eye lash curler

heh.. wasnt intend to shop de.. but..

ps: girl, your not just my shopping partner. but my super gf in my life, so happy to have you by my side =) thanks for the card. really really sweeet of u. even with sucky food, i think we still enjoy each other company the best. anyway the dress really nice on u okay! trust my taste ! girl, thanks for staying in my life ^_^ even when glen go ns, plz ask me over to watch vcd with u or go downstairs and eat fish n chips with u hor.

friday off day;

this is how i like my off days to be spend!

attend this skin care workshop at sentosa that day..
won 3rd prize in the lucky draw event.. hmm.. lucky lucky.. win 100++ dollars worth of demathologist products etc.

make up artist at work



the gifts i got that day! and new averine eyeliner =)

why do we have to quarell everyday.
why cant we have proper conversation.
why do we have to be so insensitive with our words.

so many things i wanna do with you. but time seems to be going against us. so tired of work....

sighhhh

ERRR...*
third time typing this post le !@!$@%#$^#
why so sway huh? my com keep hang.. diao* the whole post just disappear into thin air ka boom*

oh.. B A D day, dragged myself to work today only to find out that it has been re-scheduled and i have to go back? stunned* shocked* haiyah so i called a couple of friends, in the end 2 willing to rush down but sian..

1)i'm dressed in the fugly ultra tight uniform, didnt bring my clothes to change cos during night shift!
2)just shopped the entire bugis street yest, very very broke*

thankfully mum log off work at 3pm so at least somebody lunch with me then she bought me 2 gio polo tee for my work. i hate polo tees!

morning time, papa was hurt by the dog, the dog was hurt by papa. long story and very upsetting, dont feel like saying abt it le.

hmmm.. haha ..actually want to blog abt yest de. with the pics, but havent scan the neos.
becos' i want to declare that yesterday was great with the girls even though i was really tireeeddd.
1st time even more tired than yun, sorry couldnt concentrate on the conversation, kept going into daze!
i'm glad we finally came out despite our busy schedules. i'm so happy that we had so much fun shopping, really talking our hearts out. finally have time for each other. and the msgs pour in like we are mutually happy together yest =)z
*yun finally bought her first piece of own shopping with us! (besides prom)
*finally took neos tog since our sch days.
*i really spend like mad. 2 dresses, 1 sweater, 1 top and god knows how much food i eat that day.

ps: hope we will have a sleepover in oct! and more outings please!

wish i have sth nice to blog abt, but i dont really have one. been having way too much arguements with him. been crying waaay too much already. i really have no idea why. work can be too tiring at times. i need to splurge! i need to spend. i need to vent.

for yest;

Happy 21st Birthday dear Nooria =)






the files are toooo big to be upload. but anyway did have a great time over there with them. so much so much to talk about ^_^

not seeing him and not able to even contact him for 5 days is probably one of those most terrible moments we have to go through together because sway sway it has to be tough days for the both of us. me having a hard time with life and job, and him having a very xiong training for the outfield camp. *hugs*
think i have a zillion pics to upload.. but dont have the wire now.

get to meet him after work yest. i even took the wrong train, i think when ur unhappy everything just not right for u. was... very happy to see him... very. we went to changi village to eat the famous cutlet hor fun. and red tea longan. =))
and many many food la. he like so hungry..tell me so many days eat biscuit.. thin down alot.. haiz.. i see le, i think i more xin tong for him then for myself.

today also happy with him. think every moment together also happy. i just want to cherish and cherish and treasure all these little moments with him be it few hrs half a day that is never enough for the two of us. but truly sweet enough to make me forget painful days =)


ps: yang. so sorry for.. blaming you..at that moment..becos too overwhelmed by my emotions. but thanks for being the pillar in my life.

down. depressed. what else?

......... is just a fcuked up route i'm taking

so tiredddd.. how did life become so bad for a sudden change.
i actually got up at 8.30 feeling really hungry. but unfortunately dont know how my papa can even wake up earlier than me to go and eat. maybe he acc my sis. so again i'm left all alone hungry and lonely.
so anyway i decided to be brave and go out myself to explore every single neighbour hood shop that i can find to get my white pants. cos seriously i'm worried. cos have to start work tml.....
sat down at the kopi diam ate mee alone. then call this eyebrow trim shop near my house. going back later to do my brows. found my white pants in the tailor shop, the person say will amend for me. charge me 25 bucks. sian....... ugly. but too tired to look for anything. feel really horrible

maybe i really feel very shitty abt the white pants. the wrong kind of clothings for 5 days. hope i can survive. feel like i'm so weak and need someone to lean on now! i just feel i'm so big size and fat and elephant thighs.

i'm fat
cant control myself
cry for the wrong reasons
cry for stupid reasons
i need him
cry
ARG!
my tamagotchi become so ugly abit sad la

nvm..! jia you hui ting...
still need to get white shoes.
ps: i;m sure everything will be fine. let's smile for the time being.

even though need to study alot abt the skin care. i'm actually quite happy to learn sooooo many things abt it..
www.biotherm.com

just the white pants problem !

a moment ago..
was crying very badly. feeling lost.. i tried calling him on his mobile to leave him a voice mail but to my dismay.. i cant even leave a voicemail for him.

at the same time. i'm glad somebody called. trying to cheer me up and console me through out until i got better. thanks to him. *hugs* for the effort made. was feeling rather surprised though.

ps: when you need some one so badly, will they be there for u?

i feel so shitty!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG so fcuked up now!!!!!
just drown my sorrows in a packet of amos cookies
felt like puking now
ate chicken briyani. know how much it hurts?
8 hrs of training.
4 hrs of shopping. but i feel like a slave
trying to fit into those white pants that make me look like an elephant.
and you have to pay to look this shitty. where to find those white shoes.
detox detox detox. so many different skin care for me to memorise.bla bla bla..
good news is i get to work in orchard
and the bad news is... the location is not that great as u think it might be.
for now i need a break.
need to source for a solution now.
i will never wanna pay to get white pants!

ps: i need him i need him. sigggghhhhhhh

last week;

wah lao blogger! took me ages to upload this.

....how should i start?
well randomly..

feeling sick. i hate jerky bus rides, smell of fumes.
anyway..got off the bus. and need to walk a distance to reach my house.
usually i will just walk very fast because quite dark and i'm scared. but this time i took my time and stroll home, feeling lonely. partly is because i couldnt talk to him for days. and the other thing i'm starting to miss people. people i care about. is not like i'm not busy with my life,
i just wish.. like.. they would call me instead. so i call one of them like want to chat, cos chatting always make me feel the distance is shorter. but too bad she didnt pick up my call. and she didnt call back.
so i msg kelly and shortly receive a reply =) sighh.. i miss her!
ps:
i know i start work v busy. but sometimes wish these ppl will make an effort to meet me.

will be starting training tml. so i'll jus do this for fun;

Random Facts About Me
- Clumsy
- act cute/sweet sometimes
- look lian at times(not that i want it!)
- always on a diet but never succeed
- always try to save but never do it
- afraid of age-ing
- soft hearted
-i love animals


7 Things Dat Scares Me
- loneliness
- kaka
- worrying abt my love ones getting hurt
- age-ing
- accidents
- losing him
- bad friendships



7 Random Music At The Moment
- er zuo ju by Lara
- why cant i breathe by Liz phair
- beautiful stranger by Jesse McCartney
- L.O.V.E by Ashlee Simpson
- This Kiss - Faith Hill
- Li xiang qing ren by Raine
- Beautiful -James blunt


7 things i like the most
- money
- good food
-sleep
- shop shop shop shop
- cute stuff, hellokitty,hamtaro
- strawberry shapes
- the beach, my friends

boredom starting to kill me...
just one day at home. ONe day. and i cant stand it.
i know i'm so freaking tired yet i dont even wanna rest. i dont wanna sleep through the entire day knowing that ..
1) i did not exercise
2) i did not find a job successfully
3) i did not bathe my dog
4) i did not msg him
5) i did not clean my room

so many things undone. so many things waiting for me to do. so many things unfinished.. boo
maybe i'm jus plain lazy la...
is it an addiction that i'm suppose to have plans for everyday?
i need $$$$$$$
i..want to go back to bangkok
i need a school bag
i need plently of clothes
i want the MaC Rose pigments.
i need to save money
i want the Fancl Milky lotion
i need to hug him
i want to talk to him

5 days outfield.............. unreplied msgs, phone engaged.

let's be contented for now.. siggghh

oh yah* Beng got me the Tamagotchi!! love it ! =)z it's a girl!

The furthest distance in the world Is not between life and death But when I stand in front of you Yet you don't know that I love you The furthest distance in the world Is not when i stand in font of you Yet you can't see my love But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both Yet cannot Be together
The furthest distance in the world Is not being apart while being in love But when plainly can not resist the yearning Yet pretending You have never been in my heart
The furthest distance in the world Is not But using one's indifferent heart To dig an uncrossable river For the one who loves you

off day;
my life seems pretty boring now. even though so busy working and meeting up with friends, i just feel that is not enough. caught "the break up" yest after work with beng, the show was pretty good but felt like crying half way thru' the show, thinking of him, our relationship, miss him alot really.. i cant stand ns life at all. hate it to the core.

i still go out with friends, busy working etc, why do i still so blardy bored... and uncontented with my life. it seems like so many things i wanna do and indulge in, but i feel awfully restricted.

haiz. anyway brought corgi to the vet today, have to pay 275 under my a/c. *diao*



i want to feel the sun.. and me.

(edited post)
blogger doesnt seems to be functioning properly.
very wish to post up the photos of the week but.. aiyer.. *

a hectic fun filled week.. i'm tired to death.
=) i'm pretty happy now..

today;
had so much fun with dear. finally went to east coast to eat hotcakes n big breakfast. he basically just sun tanned the whole morning, but i start to take care of my skin so no sun for my face and hair. lol..went to parkway but we didnt do much shopping. i did not even try a single clothing. but just had fun eating Yoshinoya having the complete set of salmon, beef, chicken and breaded prawns. ai..really eat alot but dont know why just doing simple things with him make me enjoy the whole day so much. and resting at starbucks enjoying my new all - time favourite "Hot steam milk with hint of hazelnut flavour" i'm in love with starbucks! =)
i miss him very much now. . . .

yesterday;
had so much fun shopping with kelly. . . nothing beats the company of my favourite girl =) no words to describe how i feel. just that we keep talking and laughing even till she left at pasir ris. i was still smiling and telling yang how happy i was.

here's the loot of the day;
*navy red killer heels with lacy straps
*a white tee shirt frm bugis street
*a pink spag from blossom
*eye lash curler

heh.. wasnt intend to shop de.. but..

ps: girl, your not just my shopping partner. but my super gf in my life, so happy to have you by my side =) thanks for the card. really really sweeet of u. even with sucky food, i think we still enjoy each other company the best. anyway the dress really nice on u okay! trust my taste ! girl, thanks for staying in my life ^_^ even when glen go ns, plz ask me over to watch vcd with u or go downstairs and eat fish n chips with u hor.

friday off day;

this is how i like my off days to be spend!

attend this skin care workshop at sentosa that day..
won 3rd prize in the lucky draw event.. hmm.. lucky lucky.. win 100++ dollars worth of demathologist products etc.

make up artist at work



the gifts i got that day! and new averine eyeliner =)

why do we have to quarell everyday.
why cant we have proper conversation.
why do we have to be so insensitive with our words.

so many things i wanna do with you. but time seems to be going against us. so tired of work....

sighhhh

ERRR...*
third time typing this post le !@!$@%#$^#
why so sway huh? my com keep hang.. diao* the whole post just disappear into thin air ka boom*

oh.. B A D day, dragged myself to work today only to find out that it has been re-scheduled and i have to go back? stunned* shocked* haiyah so i called a couple of friends, in the end 2 willing to rush down but sian..

1)i'm dressed in the fugly ultra tight uniform, didnt bring my clothes to change cos during night shift!
2)just shopped the entire bugis street yest, very very broke*

thankfully mum log off work at 3pm so at least somebody lunch with me then she bought me 2 gio polo tee for my work. i hate polo tees!

morning time, papa was hurt by the dog, the dog was hurt by papa. long story and very upsetting, dont feel like saying abt it le.

hmmm.. haha ..actually want to blog abt yest de. with the pics, but havent scan the neos.
becos' i want to declare that yesterday was great with the girls even though i was really tireeeddd.
1st time even more tired than yun, sorry couldnt concentrate on the conversation, kept going into daze!
i'm glad we finally came out despite our busy schedules. i'm so happy that we had so much fun shopping, really talking our hearts out. finally have time for each other. and the msgs pour in like we are mutually happy together yest =)z
*yun finally bought her first piece of own shopping with us! (besides prom)
*finally took neos tog since our sch days.
*i really spend like mad. 2 dresses, 1 sweater, 1 top and god knows how much food i eat that day.

ps: hope we will have a sleepover in oct! and more outings please!

wish i have sth nice to blog abt, but i dont really have one. been having way too much arguements with him. been crying waaay too much already. i really have no idea why. work can be too tiring at times. i need to splurge! i need to spend. i need to vent.

for yest;

Happy 21st Birthday dear Nooria =)






the files are toooo big to be upload. but anyway did have a great time over there with them. so much so much to talk about ^_^

not seeing him and not able to even contact him for 5 days is probably one of those most terrible moments we have to go through together because sway sway it has to be tough days for the both of us. me having a hard time with life and job, and him having a very xiong training for the outfield camp. *hugs*
think i have a zillion pics to upload.. but dont have the wire now.

get to meet him after work yest. i even took the wrong train, i think when ur unhappy everything just not right for u. was... very happy to see him... very. we went to changi village to eat the famous cutlet hor fun. and red tea longan. =))
and many many food la. he like so hungry..tell me so many days eat biscuit.. thin down alot.. haiz.. i see le, i think i more xin tong for him then for myself.

today also happy with him. think every moment together also happy. i just want to cherish and cherish and treasure all these little moments with him be it few hrs half a day that is never enough for the two of us. but truly sweet enough to make me forget painful days =)


ps: yang. so sorry for.. blaming you..at that moment..becos too overwhelmed by my emotions. but thanks for being the pillar in my life.

down. depressed. what else?

......... is just a fcuked up route i'm taking

so tiredddd.. how did life become so bad for a sudden change.
i actually got up at 8.30 feeling really hungry. but unfortunately dont know how my papa can even wake up earlier than me to go and eat. maybe he acc my sis. so again i'm left all alone hungry and lonely.
so anyway i decided to be brave and go out myself to explore every single neighbour hood shop that i can find to get my white pants. cos seriously i'm worried. cos have to start work tml.....
sat down at the kopi diam ate mee alone. then call this eyebrow trim shop near my house. going back later to do my brows. found my white pants in the tailor shop, the person say will amend for me. charge me 25 bucks. sian....... ugly. but too tired to look for anything. feel really horrible

maybe i really feel very shitty abt the white pants. the wrong kind of clothings for 5 days. hope i can survive. feel like i'm so weak and need someone to lean on now! i just feel i'm so big size and fat and elephant thighs.

i'm fat
cant control myself
cry for the wrong reasons
cry for stupid reasons
i need him
cry
ARG!
my tamagotchi become so ugly abit sad la

nvm..! jia you hui ting...
still need to get white shoes.
ps: i;m sure everything will be fine. let's smile for the time being.

even though need to study alot abt the skin care. i'm actually quite happy to learn sooooo many things abt it..
www.biotherm.com

just the white pants problem !

a moment ago..
was crying very badly. feeling lost.. i tried calling him on his mobile to leave him a voice mail but to my dismay.. i cant even leave a voicemail for him.

at the same time. i'm glad somebody called. trying to cheer me up and console me through out until i got better. thanks to him. *hugs* for the effort made. was feeling rather surprised though.

ps: when you need some one so badly, will they be there for u?

i feel so shitty!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG so fcuked up now!!!!!
just drown my sorrows in a packet of amos cookies
felt like puking now
ate chicken briyani. know how much it hurts?
8 hrs of training.
4 hrs of shopping. but i feel like a slave
trying to fit into those white pants that make me look like an elephant.
and you have to pay to look this shitty. where to find those white shoes.
detox detox detox. so many different skin care for me to memorise.bla bla bla..
good news is i get to work in orchard
and the bad news is... the location is not that great as u think it might be.
for now i need a break.
need to source for a solution now.
i will never wanna pay to get white pants!

ps: i need him i need him. sigggghhhhhhh

last week;

wah lao blogger! took me ages to upload this.

....how should i start?
well randomly..

feeling sick. i hate jerky bus rides, smell of fumes.
anyway..got off the bus. and need to walk a distance to reach my house.
usually i will just walk very fast because quite dark and i'm scared. but this time i took my time and stroll home, feeling lonely. partly is because i couldnt talk to him for days. and the other thing i'm starting to miss people. people i care about. is not like i'm not busy with my life,
i just wish.. like.. they would call me instead. so i call one of them like want to chat, cos chatting always make me feel the distance is shorter. but too bad she didnt pick up my call. and she didnt call back.
so i msg kelly and shortly receive a reply =) sighh.. i miss her!
ps:
i know i start work v busy. but sometimes wish these ppl will make an effort to meet me.

will be starting training tml. so i'll jus do this for fun;

Random Facts About Me
- Clumsy
- act cute/sweet sometimes
- look lian at times(not that i want it!)
- always on a diet but never succeed
- always try to save but never do it
- afraid of age-ing
- soft hearted
-i love animals


7 Things Dat Scares Me
- loneliness
- kaka
- worrying abt my love ones getting hurt
- age-ing
- accidents
- losing him
- bad friendships



7 Random Music At The Moment
- er zuo ju by Lara
- why cant i breathe by Liz phair
- beautiful stranger by Jesse McCartney
- L.O.V.E by Ashlee Simpson
- This Kiss - Faith Hill
- Li xiang qing ren by Raine
- Beautiful -James blunt


7 things i like the most
- money
- good food
-sleep
- shop shop shop shop
- cute stuff, hellokitty,hamtaro
- strawberry shapes
- the beach, my friends

boredom starting to kill me...
just one day at home. ONe day. and i cant stand it.
i know i'm so freaking tired yet i dont even wanna rest. i dont wanna sleep through the entire day knowing that ..
1) i did not exercise
2) i did not find a job successfully
3) i did not bathe my dog
4) i did not msg him
5) i did not clean my room

so many things undone. so many things waiting for me to do. so many things unfinished.. boo
maybe i'm jus plain lazy la...
is it an addiction that i'm suppose to have plans for everyday?
i need $$$$$$$
i..want to go back to bangkok
i need a school bag
i need plently of clothes
i want the MaC Rose pigments.
i need to save money
i want the Fancl Milky lotion
i need to hug him
i want to talk to him

5 days outfield.............. unreplied msgs, phone engaged.

let's be contented for now.. siggghh

oh yah* Beng got me the Tamagotchi!! love it ! =)z it's a girl!

The furthest distance in the world Is not between life and death But when I stand in front of you Yet you don't know that I love you The furthest distance in the world Is not when i stand in font of you Yet you can't see my love But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both Yet cannot Be together
The furthest distance in the world Is not being apart while being in love But when plainly can not resist the yearning Yet pretending You have never been in my heart
The furthest distance in the world Is not But using one's indifferent heart To dig an uncrossable river For the one who loves you