About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	it must be those alcohol... Thursday, February 25, 2010 / Thursday, February 25, 2010 ♥ I havent been a good good girl. I always felt I rule my life the way I want it as long as I dont hurt anyone and I always know what I want, What I'm doing and I felt that clubbing scenes doesnt necessary make me a bad person you know. Last night, I was really upset to receive massive number of calls and after a fierce battle, I know I won... because I made my eldest Sister cry. It is almost impossible to make her cry esp. her strong character and all. It just left me stunned, shocked and guilty. In a fit of anger, I called and qns-ed my Bf why he didnt help me to churn our some white lies, why did he have to tell them when we agreed that I can club as long as I dont drink. I proceed to drinking 2 flamming lambos and I got tipsy. Appearing fairly norrmal to the rest of the people, I reached his door steps at 3.30a.m. There, I called him to open the doors for me. I remember i shld appear calm and non-drunk looking but when I saw him, I threw my arms over him and sobbed. I mumbled that I'm not very happy tonight, I made her cry. He gently told me: I have a surprise for you, you wont be sad after you see it. I looked at the table was somewhat like a shoe box wrapped in some ugly rough paper and I knew it cant be the cookie monster. It should be some stupid surprise again LOL. But no... he has placed the cookie monster in his shoe box. I just kept crying when I opened the box and see the cookie monster smiling at me. I have been obsessed with the cookie monster for months...and it's nt selling in shops. It can only be found from certain UFO CATCHER and based on my experience, he could nvr have caught it... so I have no idea how he is able to get it for me. and the worst thing is... he has been sleeping on the couch while waiting for me to come home... while i'm out there mambo-ing. I REALLY FEEL I AM UTTTERLY BEING SPOILT BY PEN SIEW YOUNG. I DONT KNOW HOW SOMEONE CAN LOVE ME SO MUCH SO MUCH ESP. the GF is so OUT OF CONTROL OR CRAZY ?... I REALLY CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE OUR HOUSE AND KIDS... I made an apology this morn to my sis. Spent the whole morning with mum at the clinic, then noon with dad at the hospital then with grandma at the hospital. sometimes life seems so bitter and sweet at the same time, like chocolates. Back to top, Babeh ! days of our lives Wednesday, February 24, 2010 / Wednesday, February 24, 2010 ♥ 黄脸婆 / MISSY CAI Back to top, Babeh ! Wednesday, February 17, 2010 / Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ♥ 曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，我没有珍惜，等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，我会对那个女孩子说三个字：我爱你 Back to top, Babeh ! why / Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ♥ why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful. Back to top, Babeh ! MSN CNY Day two Monday, February 15, 2010 / Monday, February 15, 2010 ♥ I finally set up my laptop, finally dig it out from the pile of clothes, finally use msn: busy chatting with my double C, Cat n Charmaine! LOL i was looking at some photos in FB... and felt i've drifted from too many ppl. countless... and here i am... a little lost. a little daze. a little too busy with my own matters to bother abt who will love me anot. CNY DAY TWO - KAY- will everything be alright? says: still havent eat? hahaha. shrugs. hey.. jus looking at photos and felt that i've been losing n gaining friends along the way is it good or bad. i cant seems to keep those who dont make efforts w me. or maybe i'm the one who chose to lose them i guess is sad but i cant keep all of them,... maybe i dont want to be the one always doing the job. guess ppl who wanna love me come ahead. dont want then dont want loh. CATHERINE says: lol mai emo lehhs ass sh is snoring =.= damn loud feel like slapping his face pour cold water lOL KAY- will everything be alright? says: yea sec sch or jc friends etc. i dont have many sec sch friends. but of cos i still have some golden ones left. mainly from my uni. cos i'm quite a loner last time nyway some ppl boh chemistry with u. even if they tog with u many years also cant say they are yr BFFs that kind of feeling loh CATHERINE says: lol ehhhh KAY- will everything be alright? says: hahah i nvr EMO CATHERINE says: no worries u gt me u wont lose le =D KAY- will everything be alright? says: yea i know. u my golden apple put in my basket liao hahaha CATHERINE says: lol u my rotten apple =D KAY- will everything be alright? says: hahaha u better eat haha! CATHERINE says: no body dare to eat u LOL cos i eat rotten AHHAHAD KAY- will everything be alright? says: u still keep HAHAH!!! WORST CATHERINE says: ROAR LOL BF is away... in msia. I'm so tired... imagine having yr angbao money taken away since day1. have to use the money to pay for bills... i'm exhausted and feel like crying or tired or jobless draining away all my optimism. simple chats like this warms my heart... like cotton floss... sugary sweet. i suurely know one thing. be it love friendship wealth career life. time will tell. and all that u think matters now might not be as important in time. plz note some where in my life i truly loves u cares for u faithful. and i'm glad i'm part of yr small tiny life. LOL!!!! Labels: cat, msn Back to top, Babeh ! wed Wednesday, February 10, 2010 / Wednesday, February 10, 2010 ♥ My belly piercing split open today, thought have to do some stitching up! was crying at the doc and feeling faint as the doc tries to calm me down.. I could feel my flesh flapping as I walk to the clinic. Zz sigh pa say I do housework until it splits. Think the infection cause it to be mutated. 70 bucks gone. Sigh endless troubles. Dad mum grandma all sick. It's not easy being a house-girl lol really feel like huang lian po now :] Labels: Piercing Back to top, Babeh ! Monday, February 08, 2010 / Monday, February 08, 2010 ♥ Life Really not easy.. Why is this path so difficult to walk ? Back to top, Babeh ! iPhone blogging Friday, February 05, 2010 / Friday, February 05, 2010 ♥ Blog using iPhone , power a not? Lol it's my last day today and my last exchange with him only made me realize my decision is absolutely correct. I have greater confidence in my abilities and capabilities in handling newsletter, advertising , storyboard , press release , websites and even doing co calling. I am glad I made him clinch a deal before I leave the co but I doubt I'll be rewarded for my efforts. Somehow the grass I'd def greener outside . So the hell with him!!! Freaking ass... Had enough of your non appreciative nonsense and bad tone. Here's a place full of memories as i change from job to job, I kinda figure out where my strengths lie. I ammmm goooooooood hahaha. I'm awfully nutcase now! Baby likes to call me nut nut! Another bad thing to me is my horrible looking hair now so if u don't have nice things yo say about me, don't come commenting about my hair. I look 5 yrs older now! I'm tired, fat and ugly and emotional and hungry 24/7. Tuesday steamboating iiiii can't wait :] why my dear ends work so late? Back to top, Babeh ! Exhausted Wednesday, February 03, 2010 / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ WORK HARD... 没有解决不了的问题 ... By friday I will be jobless again. My calendar are marked with most of my mum and dad's hospital appointments. When Mum have to go for check ups, I will have to be home for dad and prob. cook for him? I still have problems fixing this :( because it's very difficult for me to cook fish/ non oily/ no-salt dishes. I kinda have some fear in cooking as well. His health will be at risk if I dont do a proper job. I should have more faith in myself right? PAPa damm mean lol, he also dont dare to try my cooking LOL! Me: papa, dont worry i will cook for u on sat! i will look after u. PAPA: nono, u just go out and buy a packet of rice dots... It's one of my aspirations to be a good housewife! (btw... have u tried my cake before :P ) Back to top, Babeh ! Last project / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ Last Project? When he starts to say such things... he seems to know. It gets really stressful. Been getting dizzy spells and falling ill at work. I spent everyday at home after work, dinner, and discussing on and on about medication, bills, his emotions, insurance, A n E bills... Mum starts to request that the money for food is not enough and hope we can give a bit more.Sometimes is just not fair, I've been giving my part, why cant XX do the same. Even when I was just working part time as a sales girl, I still give 50 or 100 to home. Although now things are slightly better, I'still feel like such a loser at times. I earn that measly salary, after CPF deduction, own food and transport fee, I can only give a few hundreds to home. I dont know how can I get married now? I cant fully support my own parents... how to support my own kids next time. sigh. I still have my happy days... and i hope i see him smile and breathe everyday... :] Back to top, Babeh ! WHW smiles / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ Days Worth Smiling about... tak glam but we are still hot babes from whw. HAHA! Labels: geraldine, webcam Back to top, Babeh ! DEC Club Scene / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ I'm still stuck in December days.... Club Scene before xmas09 pz. familiar faces at club PZ likes to msg me and qns if i'm drunk again, dont get drunk. Nooo.. I'm nvr drunk. I'll only go super crazy when i see my GFS Dec baby my prettiest CAT went down to suntec n did a mini surprise for her... before she go BATAM :] Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	it must be those alcohol... Thursday, February 25, 2010 / Thursday, February 25, 2010 ♥ I havent been a good good girl. I always felt I rule my life the way I want it as long as I dont hurt anyone and I always know what I want, What I'm doing and I felt that clubbing scenes doesnt necessary make me a bad person you know. Last night, I was really upset to receive massive number of calls and after a fierce battle, I know I won... because I made my eldest Sister cry. It is almost impossible to make her cry esp. her strong character and all. It just left me stunned, shocked and guilty. In a fit of anger, I called and qns-ed my Bf why he didnt help me to churn our some white lies, why did he have to tell them when we agreed that I can club as long as I dont drink. I proceed to drinking 2 flamming lambos and I got tipsy. Appearing fairly norrmal to the rest of the people, I reached his door steps at 3.30a.m. There, I called him to open the doors for me. I remember i shld appear calm and non-drunk looking but when I saw him, I threw my arms over him and sobbed. I mumbled that I'm not very happy tonight, I made her cry. He gently told me: I have a surprise for you, you wont be sad after you see it. I looked at the table was somewhat like a shoe box wrapped in some ugly rough paper and I knew it cant be the cookie monster. It should be some stupid surprise again LOL. But no... he has placed the cookie monster in his shoe box. I just kept crying when I opened the box and see the cookie monster smiling at me. I have been obsessed with the cookie monster for months...and it's nt selling in shops. It can only be found from certain UFO CATCHER and based on my experience, he could nvr have caught it... so I have no idea how he is able to get it for me. and the worst thing is... he has been sleeping on the couch while waiting for me to come home... while i'm out there mambo-ing. I REALLY FEEL I AM UTTTERLY BEING SPOILT BY PEN SIEW YOUNG. I DONT KNOW HOW SOMEONE CAN LOVE ME SO MUCH SO MUCH ESP. the GF is so OUT OF CONTROL OR CRAZY ?... I REALLY CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE OUR HOUSE AND KIDS... I made an apology this morn to my sis. Spent the whole morning with mum at the clinic, then noon with dad at the hospital then with grandma at the hospital. sometimes life seems so bitter and sweet at the same time, like chocolates. Back to top, Babeh ! days of our lives Wednesday, February 24, 2010 / Wednesday, February 24, 2010 ♥ 黄脸婆 / MISSY CAI Back to top, Babeh ! Wednesday, February 17, 2010 / Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ♥ 曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，我没有珍惜，等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，我会对那个女孩子说三个字：我爱你 Back to top, Babeh ! why / Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ♥ why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful. why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful.why is it so stressful. Back to top, Babeh ! MSN CNY Day two Monday, February 15, 2010 / Monday, February 15, 2010 ♥ I finally set up my laptop, finally dig it out from the pile of clothes, finally use msn: busy chatting with my double C, Cat n Charmaine! LOL i was looking at some photos in FB... and felt i've drifted from too many ppl. countless... and here i am... a little lost. a little daze. a little too busy with my own matters to bother abt who will love me anot. CNY DAY TWO - KAY- will everything be alright? says: still havent eat? hahaha. shrugs. hey.. jus looking at photos and felt that i've been losing n gaining friends along the way is it good or bad. i cant seems to keep those who dont make efforts w me. or maybe i'm the one who chose to lose them i guess is sad but i cant keep all of them,... maybe i dont want to be the one always doing the job. guess ppl who wanna love me come ahead. dont want then dont want loh. CATHERINE says: lol mai emo lehhs ass sh is snoring =.= damn loud feel like slapping his face pour cold water lOL KAY- will everything be alright? says: yea sec sch or jc friends etc. i dont have many sec sch friends. but of cos i still have some golden ones left. mainly from my uni. cos i'm quite a loner last time nyway some ppl boh chemistry with u. even if they tog with u many years also cant say they are yr BFFs that kind of feeling loh CATHERINE says: lol ehhhh KAY- will everything be alright? says: hahah i nvr EMO CATHERINE says: no worries u gt me u wont lose le =D KAY- will everything be alright? says: yea i know. u my golden apple put in my basket liao hahaha CATHERINE says: lol u my rotten apple =D KAY- will everything be alright? says: hahaha u better eat haha! CATHERINE says: no body dare to eat u LOL cos i eat rotten AHHAHAD KAY- will everything be alright? says: u still keep HAHAH!!! WORST CATHERINE says: ROAR LOL BF is away... in msia. I'm so tired... imagine having yr angbao money taken away since day1. have to use the money to pay for bills... i'm exhausted and feel like crying or tired or jobless draining away all my optimism. simple chats like this warms my heart... like cotton floss... sugary sweet. i suurely know one thing. be it love friendship wealth career life. time will tell. and all that u think matters now might not be as important in time. plz note some where in my life i truly loves u cares for u faithful. and i'm glad i'm part of yr small tiny life. LOL!!!! Labels: cat, msn Back to top, Babeh ! wed Wednesday, February 10, 2010 / Wednesday, February 10, 2010 ♥ My belly piercing split open today, thought have to do some stitching up! was crying at the doc and feeling faint as the doc tries to calm me down.. I could feel my flesh flapping as I walk to the clinic. Zz sigh pa say I do housework until it splits. Think the infection cause it to be mutated. 70 bucks gone. Sigh endless troubles. Dad mum grandma all sick. It's not easy being a house-girl lol really feel like huang lian po now :] Labels: Piercing Back to top, Babeh ! Monday, February 08, 2010 / Monday, February 08, 2010 ♥ Life Really not easy.. Why is this path so difficult to walk ? Back to top, Babeh ! iPhone blogging Friday, February 05, 2010 / Friday, February 05, 2010 ♥ Blog using iPhone , power a not? Lol it's my last day today and my last exchange with him only made me realize my decision is absolutely correct. I have greater confidence in my abilities and capabilities in handling newsletter, advertising , storyboard , press release , websites and even doing co calling. I am glad I made him clinch a deal before I leave the co but I doubt I'll be rewarded for my efforts. Somehow the grass I'd def greener outside . So the hell with him!!! Freaking ass... Had enough of your non appreciative nonsense and bad tone. Here's a place full of memories as i change from job to job, I kinda figure out where my strengths lie. I ammmm goooooooood hahaha. I'm awfully nutcase now! Baby likes to call me nut nut! Another bad thing to me is my horrible looking hair now so if u don't have nice things yo say about me, don't come commenting about my hair. I look 5 yrs older now! I'm tired, fat and ugly and emotional and hungry 24/7. Tuesday steamboating iiiii can't wait :] why my dear ends work so late? Back to top, Babeh ! Exhausted Wednesday, February 03, 2010 / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ WORK HARD... 没有解决不了的问题 ... By friday I will be jobless again. My calendar are marked with most of my mum and dad's hospital appointments. When Mum have to go for check ups, I will have to be home for dad and prob. cook for him? I still have problems fixing this :( because it's very difficult for me to cook fish/ non oily/ no-salt dishes. I kinda have some fear in cooking as well. His health will be at risk if I dont do a proper job. I should have more faith in myself right? PAPa damm mean lol, he also dont dare to try my cooking LOL! Me: papa, dont worry i will cook for u on sat! i will look after u. PAPA: nono, u just go out and buy a packet of rice dots... It's one of my aspirations to be a good housewife! (btw... have u tried my cake before :P ) Back to top, Babeh ! Last project / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ Last Project? When he starts to say such things... he seems to know. It gets really stressful. Been getting dizzy spells and falling ill at work. I spent everyday at home after work, dinner, and discussing on and on about medication, bills, his emotions, insurance, A n E bills... Mum starts to request that the money for food is not enough and hope we can give a bit more.Sometimes is just not fair, I've been giving my part, why cant XX do the same. Even when I was just working part time as a sales girl, I still give 50 or 100 to home. Although now things are slightly better, I'still feel like such a loser at times. I earn that measly salary, after CPF deduction, own food and transport fee, I can only give a few hundreds to home. I dont know how can I get married now? I cant fully support my own parents... how to support my own kids next time. sigh. I still have my happy days... and i hope i see him smile and breathe everyday... :] Back to top, Babeh ! WHW smiles / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ Days Worth Smiling about... tak glam but we are still hot babes from whw. HAHA! Labels: geraldine, webcam Back to top, Babeh ! DEC Club Scene / Wednesday, February 03, 2010 ♥ I'm still stuck in December days.... Club Scene before xmas09 pz. familiar faces at club PZ likes to msg me and qns if i'm drunk again, dont get drunk. Nooo.. I'm nvr drunk. I'll only go super crazy when i see my GFS Dec baby my prettiest CAT went down to suntec n did a mini surprise for her... before she go BATAM :] Back to top, Babeh !	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