zen moments.
Sunday, August 31, 2008 / Sunday, August 31, 2008 ♥
Born. again.the clouds in my mind are finally clearing. and i did it by myself!! starting to see light in heart-matters. as a highly-emotional, ultra-sensitive, psychotic kid. growing up has been a difficult process. yup. plz endure with me. most importantly, i learn to be true to myself. :))))) at least' i'm real. and my conscience is clear. & hold no regrets. walk on now.... been busy. 'channelling all my energies to loving peeps. i need to love my pa, ma, dear, my doggies, my mews-mews, my g-friends, pals...... if i can. i would do more for all. lov3.lov3.lov3.Yest was a momemt to rem....my sweet<3 child hood bestie (limlicheng) had her 21st celebration... :))) (ouch* my blogger is down. &my com is crashing soon. shall continue this post with pictures soon... )
now. i'm home.
Saturday, August 30, 2008 / Saturday, August 30, 2008 ♥
WHY DONT U GIVE ME A BREAK.is bloody 12.35AM. AND I JUS GOT HOME FROM WORK. AND I'M FINALLY HOME FOR THIS NIGHT. I want nothing. but PEACE at the end of the day.
my Last Post...
Sunday, August 17, 2008 / Sunday, August 17, 2008 ♥
death comes so near now... just like before.
i just wanna speak to my blog.
/ Sunday, August 17, 2008 ♥
bcos i wasnt feeling v well inside.he brought me up to kent ridge park.took the notorious 99 turns (hokkien) route. can imagine him 'drifting' ? and me screaming.
the sky was so dark. and there's lots of lights.
we'll high on top of the mountain?
(i'm aint that descriptive aint i)
in fact. i cant see much. was just enjoying the cool breeze.
darkness.
nature. that seems so real and pretty.
& prob. then i started to feel a lil..bit better.
why do i always feel i have alot...
but at the same time. i seems to have nothing
at all.
i know insecurities keep creeping in on me.
like a Ghost
i tried to laugh it off shake it off like it doesnt bothers.
not
wanting to be weak... but not feeling v
strong either.
can i? just survive this
21 years in this world, and still relatively
unscathed. underneathe this skin are bruises unseen
that seems to be surfacing every now n then.
you know what.
i'll be fine.
(they'll always say i'm thinking too much. full stop)
PS:
to Joo. thanks for coming down. surprise*
but sometimes intuition tells me u'll come down. thanks for being there. for me. was on the way back when i listen to this song.
thought of u & my yang of cos. thanks for being my guardian angel. if i think of u. i think u will appear.
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望  :)))) xie xie ni. for giving me a piece of light and faith.
mugging.
Friday, August 15, 2008 / Friday, August 15, 2008 ♥
EXAM is tmr. have not much faith in it though.presenting my no.1 distraction
 yr my strength. to go on. PS: i love u and OF cos. i seems to have cravings for Pearl milk tea  blow wind blow. blow my exam blues away. REquested work 3.30-11pm after my exam tmr! zai bu zai? BLeAhx. WORK bAH! woRk HArd for $$! What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth. ~Jewish Proverb
bcos her blog post made me smile...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 / Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ♥
after a series of mishaps that've befalling on me lately. i jus wanna cheers... that i DO love my girls at whathewants. the fun.laughters and tears. the revelation of many secrets. photos that speaks of our beautiful memories. i realize it gets even more difficult to part with it now... sometimes we get mad. we get bored. or exhausted. we wanna leave. but then we never really leave. it has quite becomes like a second home that we call our own. bcos Trish post is so sweet :) and it brought a smile to my face :) so cant help but dedicate a cheer to our memories.  trish. power. ^O^ i will miss working with u. <3 <3 love love lots. just one pic for now. cos i'll have a dozen more to load after. :)) back to my ASS-ignment.
if u hadnt already heard...
/ Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ♥
still cant believe myself. my eyes. my ears. my pulse.finalized. after a series of investigations. we can 90 % confirm n close this case. chuahuiting is vicitmized on national day dated 9th august. 6.14pm. that unfateful day when she hand over a bunch of cash to a magician. *as recorded on CCTV* i'm dead. dead. you know what. em' sorry for myself. for everything that've happened. em' an extremely careful when it comes to money matters. this has been an extremely huge blow to me. is not abt losing the money that pains my heart. i swear i wasnt being careless. too exhausting to tell the full story over here. i would have trouble explaining my part. is complicating, bewildering and prob.unbelivable. is the strangeness and the guessing bit that is killing me. its hurting so bad. every bit. the fear that remains within me. doesnt subside. even when the matter comes to light. is the fear and scary feeling of being 'illusionized' , 'cheated' PS: i still take this to heart. heaven have eyes. justice will prevaili'm appreciative. am thankful and full of praises for my boss. for every bit he did. despite all. somehow i'm touched* PS: thank u. *i doubt he'll gt to see this* thats all. 19th aug is drawing near. should place assignment n exam on my mind now. have to sleep. try to sleep. hope i'll fall asleep. c u in the dreams. love, me.
the summer sun. will warms her soul.
Sunday, August 10, 2008 / Sunday, August 10, 2008 ♥
   PS:vexed. trouble' trouble. god knows.on a sweeter note...was kinda *touched* over some small thoughts. small stuff :))) made her realize. she will be loved. still is v much loved by a plenty. <3 <3 <3
the emo bubble. will one day consume me.
Thursday, August 07, 2008 / Thursday, August 07, 2008 ♥
there's this little bubble. of ugly thoughts and feelings residing inside me. i see it grow with power and soon it might just consume me. i struggled. tried to fight it. wrestle with it. but to no avail. i wonder how i will feel tmr. it alr seems difficult for me. to even think abt tmr. i guess. i wish. i was abit happier. i guess i'm sorry. to me. i love me. ps. you know... tonight i did the merlion. puking almost everything. except my organs. tonight. there's the drizzling rain. good night.
this love. is. so.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 / Tuesday, August 05, 2008 ♥
i didnt know why or when the tears start falling.i jus wanted to see him. talk to him. but he hurt me. accidentalin the hot noon. went running alone to cool myself down. with the music blasting in my ears. and i saw.... this old grandfather just fetches his lil'grand daughter from e kindergarden. HE walks ahead, panting, trying to reach the shade to catch his breath. the cute lil'girl w big round specs. walks behind,playing. when HE reach the block, he called out to her and she ran towards him happily. I didnt know how. somehow I could sense the sweetness of their relationship just by lookin at them. and the heartache within me sorta dissolve. anyway i know i couldnt be upset w him for long.
CRABBY
Sunday, August 03, 2008 / Sunday, August 03, 2008 ♥
so crabby now. after a feast at house of seafood. the crabs are super-licious, gigantic-licious, and of cos yummi-licious. it's really THE BEST CRABS EVERRRRRRR woot woot* overdosed of crabs now. dot dot. overdosed of good food and love lately. :P i need to diet. quick! ps: wish i dont have to work FULL shift tmr. groans* coming week is a KILLER. okie just one pic. of my sweet lil' colleague swim budd. :P  tAtA. gonna go dvd-ing with my loverboy
dim-sum-dollies
Friday, August 01, 2008 / Friday, August 01, 2008 ♥
grrrgggggggggggggarrrrroaaaaaaaarrrbbbbbbbbbbleahx. I AM DAMM SLEEEPY NOW. haiz. i feel as if i rEALLY havent been home for these 2 weeks. came back home to change n get for work only. didnt get to see mum at all. and felt bad over the small arguement on wed. brrrr. last night after work. went dim sum with the boyz at geylang till late night. the FOOD WAS AWWWEEEsomEEE! HEE!!! :)))))))) i feel i'm dying now. charge my blood with red bull. i dont feel like working today. i am EXHAUSTED! i want to sleep. i really really dont wish to work. leg still bit cramps from yest stock-taking :((((((( weak ar. cant wait for the weekends to arrive.
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zen moments.
Sunday, August 31, 2008 / Sunday, August 31, 2008 ♥
Born. again.the clouds in my mind are finally clearing. and i did it by myself!! starting to see light in heart-matters. as a highly-emotional, ultra-sensitive, psychotic kid. growing up has been a difficult process. yup. plz endure with me. most importantly, i learn to be true to myself. :))))) at least' i'm real. and my conscience is clear. & hold no regrets. walk on now.... been busy. 'channelling all my energies to loving peeps. i need to love my pa, ma, dear, my doggies, my mews-mews, my g-friends, pals...... if i can. i would do more for all. lov3.lov3.lov3.Yest was a momemt to rem....my sweet<3 child hood bestie (limlicheng) had her 21st celebration... :))) (ouch* my blogger is down. &my com is crashing soon. shall continue this post with pictures soon... )
now. i'm home.
Saturday, August 30, 2008 / Saturday, August 30, 2008 ♥
WHY DONT U GIVE ME A BREAK.is bloody 12.35AM. AND I JUS GOT HOME FROM WORK. AND I'M FINALLY HOME FOR THIS NIGHT. I want nothing. but PEACE at the end of the day.
my Last Post...
Sunday, August 17, 2008 / Sunday, August 17, 2008 ♥
death comes so near now... just like before.
i just wanna speak to my blog.
/ Sunday, August 17, 2008 ♥
bcos i wasnt feeling v well inside.he brought me up to kent ridge park.took the notorious 99 turns (hokkien) route. can imagine him 'drifting' ? and me screaming.
the sky was so dark. and there's lots of lights.
we'll high on top of the mountain?
(i'm aint that descriptive aint i)
in fact. i cant see much. was just enjoying the cool breeze.
darkness.
nature. that seems so real and pretty.
& prob. then i started to feel a lil..bit better.
why do i always feel i have alot...
but at the same time. i seems to have nothing
at all.
i know insecurities keep creeping in on me.
like a Ghost
i tried to laugh it off shake it off like it doesnt bothers.
not
wanting to be weak... but not feeling v
strong either.
can i? just survive this
21 years in this world, and still relatively
unscathed. underneathe this skin are bruises unseen
that seems to be surfacing every now n then.
you know what.
i'll be fine.
(they'll always say i'm thinking too much. full stop)
PS:
to Joo. thanks for coming down. surprise*
but sometimes intuition tells me u'll come down. thanks for being there. for me. was on the way back when i listen to this song.
thought of u & my yang of cos. thanks for being my guardian angel. if i think of u. i think u will appear.
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望 :)))) xie xie ni. for giving me a piece of light and faith.
mugging.
Friday, August 15, 2008 / Friday, August 15, 2008 ♥
EXAM is tmr. have not much faith in it though.presenting my no.1 distraction
yr my strength. to go on. PS: i love u and OF cos. i seems to have cravings for Pearl milk tea blow wind blow. blow my exam blues away. REquested work 3.30-11pm after my exam tmr! zai bu zai? BLeAhx. WORK bAH! woRk HArd for $$! What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth. ~Jewish Proverb
bcos her blog post made me smile...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 / Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ♥
after a series of mishaps that've befalling on me lately. i jus wanna cheers... that i DO love my girls at whathewants. the fun.laughters and tears. the revelation of many secrets. photos that speaks of our beautiful memories. i realize it gets even more difficult to part with it now... sometimes we get mad. we get bored. or exhausted. we wanna leave. but then we never really leave. it has quite becomes like a second home that we call our own. bcos Trish post is so sweet :) and it brought a smile to my face :) so cant help but dedicate a cheer to our memories. trish. power. ^O^ i will miss working with u. <3 <3 love love lots. just one pic for now. cos i'll have a dozen more to load after. :)) back to my ASS-ignment.
if u hadnt already heard...
/ Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ♥
still cant believe myself. my eyes. my ears. my pulse.finalized. after a series of investigations. we can 90 % confirm n close this case. chuahuiting is vicitmized on national day dated 9th august. 6.14pm. that unfateful day when she hand over a bunch of cash to a magician. *as recorded on CCTV* i'm dead. dead. you know what. em' sorry for myself. for everything that've happened. em' an extremely careful when it comes to money matters. this has been an extremely huge blow to me. is not abt losing the money that pains my heart. i swear i wasnt being careless. too exhausting to tell the full story over here. i would have trouble explaining my part. is complicating, bewildering and prob.unbelivable. is the strangeness and the guessing bit that is killing me. its hurting so bad. every bit. the fear that remains within me. doesnt subside. even when the matter comes to light. is the fear and scary feeling of being 'illusionized' , 'cheated' PS: i still take this to heart. heaven have eyes. justice will prevaili'm appreciative. am thankful and full of praises for my boss. for every bit he did. despite all. somehow i'm touched* PS: thank u. *i doubt he'll gt to see this* thats all. 19th aug is drawing near. should place assignment n exam on my mind now. have to sleep. try to sleep. hope i'll fall asleep. c u in the dreams. love, me.
the summer sun. will warms her soul.
Sunday, August 10, 2008 / Sunday, August 10, 2008 ♥
PS:vexed. trouble' trouble. god knows.on a sweeter note...was kinda *touched* over some small thoughts. small stuff :))) made her realize. she will be loved. still is v much loved by a plenty. <3 <3 <3
the emo bubble. will one day consume me.
Thursday, August 07, 2008 / Thursday, August 07, 2008 ♥
there's this little bubble. of ugly thoughts and feelings residing inside me. i see it grow with power and soon it might just consume me. i struggled. tried to fight it. wrestle with it. but to no avail. i wonder how i will feel tmr. it alr seems difficult for me. to even think abt tmr. i guess. i wish. i was abit happier. i guess i'm sorry. to me. i love me. ps. you know... tonight i did the merlion. puking almost everything. except my organs. tonight. there's the drizzling rain. good night.
this love. is. so.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 / Tuesday, August 05, 2008 ♥
i didnt know why or when the tears start falling.i jus wanted to see him. talk to him. but he hurt me. accidentalin the hot noon. went running alone to cool myself down. with the music blasting in my ears. and i saw.... this old grandfather just fetches his lil'grand daughter from e kindergarden. HE walks ahead, panting, trying to reach the shade to catch his breath. the cute lil'girl w big round specs. walks behind,playing. when HE reach the block, he called out to her and she ran towards him happily. I didnt know how. somehow I could sense the sweetness of their relationship just by lookin at them. and the heartache within me sorta dissolve. anyway i know i couldnt be upset w him for long.
CRABBY
Sunday, August 03, 2008 / Sunday, August 03, 2008 ♥
so crabby now. after a feast at house of seafood. the crabs are super-licious, gigantic-licious, and of cos yummi-licious. it's really THE BEST CRABS EVERRRRRRR woot woot* overdosed of crabs now. dot dot. overdosed of good food and love lately. :P i need to diet. quick! ps: wish i dont have to work FULL shift tmr. groans* coming week is a KILLER. okie just one pic. of my sweet lil' colleague swim budd. :P tAtA. gonna go dvd-ing with my loverboy
dim-sum-dollies
Friday, August 01, 2008 / Friday, August 01, 2008 ♥
grrrgggggggggggggarrrrroaaaaaaaarrrbbbbbbbbbbleahx. I AM DAMM SLEEEPY NOW. haiz. i feel as if i rEALLY havent been home for these 2 weeks. came back home to change n get for work only. didnt get to see mum at all. and felt bad over the small arguement on wed. brrrr. last night after work. went dim sum with the boyz at geylang till late night. the FOOD WAS AWWWEEEsomEEE! HEE!!! :)))))))) i feel i'm dying now. charge my blood with red bull. i dont feel like working today. i am EXHAUSTED! i want to sleep. i really really dont wish to work. leg still bit cramps from yest stock-taking :((((((( weak ar. cant wait for the weekends to arrive.
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