About Recent Affiliates BenCool Services Tagboard Music Playlist at MixPod.com Tell me if time should make a change Then why do I feel the same?	I LUB U. Friday, September 26, 2008 / Friday, September 26, 2008 ♥ LOVE. :))) Back to top, Babeh ! random lovely positive thinking post. Thursday, September 25, 2008 / Thursday, September 25, 2008 ♥ HEE.GOT BACK MY PHONE. :)) I MISS BF. lol. Met him just now. showed him the BAG. we couldnt talk much as I was busy reading. sigh. teh-bing tog at the coffeeshop. And I couldnt stop talking about what I've learned in class today keke. I'm so annoying can. :D As usual, school is great. :) Heavy amt. of stress but learning is so enjoyable. though so much readings to do and I'm such a slow pok at times. I'm LOVING American Politics! YESt. celebrated Alan's bday! Had a Crabs affair. hee. shall blog when i post the pics bah. ps: daddy drank so much again. it affected me :( but in my positive mode, I' finished my sch work and did some readings lolx. Back to top, Babeh ! bcos... he says he loves me. Tuesday, September 23, 2008 / Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ♥ PS: i'm afraid. of him. of things happening between us. but i still love him the most. MY OFF DAY TODAY. woot. FINALLY send my hp for servicing. such a fruitful day with Joo & CCF. pretty babes :)zz as promised. food date with my Joo. Hongkong cafe. instead of miss dior cherie. dear sponsored my new puma bag for *our 4th yr anni.* so i can bring it to U.S hohoho. I LOVE IT!!! is been a long time since I've gone out for shopping? did nt spend much which is GOOD. did not buy any clothes :( fell in love with the Agnes.B locket necklace. best thing is... I enjoyed myself with the best company. muacks muacks muacks <3 MORNING CLASSES TMR. NEW MOD. HAIZ. AMERICAN POLITICS. HAIZ. i dont wish TO SCH. HAIZ. got to sleep. HAIZ night Back to top, Babeh ! everything? bottle it up. Friday, September 19, 2008 / Friday, September 19, 2008 ♥ hee. waited for mummy today... so she'll acc me for TEH-Bing at the coffeeshop. the spot where she read her newspaper. and i'll read my notes... supering with her..before i go msia that night: selegie beancurd! :))))) i love mummy. she believes in me. i dont feel good inside today. prob. becos i'm hearing too much things... i'm not letting it get to me. i believe i should experience anything myself before i pass any judgements. is hard to believe in people at times? but is beautiful to believe. 我不完美 i'm not perfect. but imperfection is a kind of beauty. no? :) good night world. exam tmr. work tmr. good luck! Back to top, Babeh ! i love my doggies. they help me to destRess / Friday, September 19, 2008 ♥ woof woof. bcos she hates the flash* grouchy* chi lantern fes: other pics other time. and previously on Aston some time ago... she drops by again. LOLX We tried the Cathay's branch :)) the end~ Back to top, Babeh ! Ee. i'm stressed and FAT. Monday, September 15, 2008 / Monday, September 15, 2008 ♥ 3.12 AM LE.. dotss... awww... dear surprised me just now. by downloading the CRAZY TAXI game for me and bring the PSP over. I just told him i love the game and he went to download for me le :))))))zzz tee hee* sadly. i still cant finish the assignment tonight. losing time. and i dont like this feeeeling. my com is virus infected. my hp...is spoilt. so dont even bother calling me cos i cant pick up. almost every button has cracked. my camera is failing me. my bed is bug-infested. i'm dying to shop... :((( feel so miserable now. i want my miss dior cherie perfume. I WANT la. and i didnt get to watch 4bia. mummy says she'll give me $$ for my bday gift in U.S hee. so i get to choose all my bday gifts over there. *After all,* *one thing i can be sure of....* i'm going to U.S and JAPAN. in ya...2 months time.... I'm really going.... this is reality ---->>>> sounds scary. and shoooo exciting!! :))) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am so tired. sleep deprived. wierd thoughts. big tummy. flabby arms. die. stress. food. stress. i love my mummy. love my doggies. the ass is killing me slowly n painfully. i miss my bf. he still not here yet. ROARRRRRR. i need to sleep again. the bed is just so delicious. 3 more qns to go... finish it! and i can start my revision sooooon. sat exam. no hope. sayonara~~ Back to top, Babeh ! N is for Nostalgia. Monday, September 08, 2008 / Monday, September 08, 2008 ♥ (been web-caming lolx, act emO, anyway i wld v much like to post up some webcam pics with jooo... but ya....but scared i might be strangled la* LOLX.) i'm thinking if i will get to finish this post? it seems hard to type a proper post when there are just... too many things going on at the same time. I' might jus slot this post into my drafts. and never let it see daylight. em' exhausted now... so bad that i'm practically typing away with half my eyelids closed. had a bit of drink last night...with him. we finally hit the sack at only 4am. Zzzzz aNyway. first thing first... Happy Lantern Festival ! f :))) mooncakes. i had my fair share of goodies this month. *with Goodwood park hotel durian mooncakes yum from korkor, and other snacks. 4-5 boxes of mOonCakes stacked at home. AND we're going chi garden later :)))** happy nah.. family...korkor.korgf. da jie. me.bf. and mummy... yupppps September love.birthday babies: Leon's sep 11. okie.. after being friends for so long... this is prob the first gift from me to him :) bleahz.... and i'm happy he love it so mucH! hmm... gosh. i counted...6 yrs of friendship alr. hee. from the small lil' heartwarming chat... is sweet to know that many things remain unchanged... like the beauty of the friendship and a person who knows u well. em touched Sister Kelly's 21st Bday white rose as symbolizm of elegance and purity of a love for my childhood bestie. :)) though many things have changed and even at times, we barely even meet anymore. But on that day. at that moment. when i see my happy girl... i know i love her :) Working Days: yest...slogging away.... sushi buffet with minyee. ahhh... chewy junior. ah bao delivers goodies* i love mini surprises :) playing taxi at work? noti.. :P jus for a while.. dinner treat from office boY. with the crazy babes. LASTnight, that wave of nostalgia hit us( dear dear n me)... when we open this dusty treasure chest of love. we started squealing in excitment, laughters as we page through...these sweet delights. :) albums of our photos, the first time we met, the first letter i wrote to him, the first xmas we spent, the KL trip, the Bangkok trip, Genting, ...the friends we have... they grow up with us. grow up with our relationship. there's a mountain of love letters we exchanged when i was at my adolecsent age of 15. the kind of letters we wrote 'at that time' : this line that goes...agar-a-tion from my memory yest: "recess now........." then ending off with "... ok, teacher come back liao. miss u. 5121314" well... the letter was dated year 2003. vintage man~~~~. and there's a collection of Princess movie tix during our 'poor' school days, recalling the slide show aDs and seats that felt just like sbs bus seats. 15 going almost 22 soon. well... 8 yrs of 'stuff'... my dear.... is the man who has walk with me through the years. and none could ever replace such memories. yr my best friend :) the bestest of all... who knows every single bit of me. every sin. every past. every good. every happiness. every joy. every tear... and still love me unconditionally....always. Last week: WallE with Kai so long never meet le :( beng dropped by... treat me donut. yum yum. Sep07 the silly buta did something bad to herself again. dear was harsh at me... for not listening to him. for always not listening to him. sigh. it feels so hard to carry on sometimes... there's just too many times i'm gonna fail myself. i'm always out of control. and i dont like myself to be like this. i wanna be strong. i wanna give love to many..... :(((( i know it may seems bit difficult to understand me.. many have alr abandon me calling me crazy, perhaps ppl find it hard to attend to me. my erractic moods which they claim as sensitive, unreasonable, or even AA. if i could. i wouldnt be crying n tearing till my throat once bleed when i was in pri sch. i may be sick... but i'm definitely not crazy. hurling such words at me... is enough to break my frail little small heart. i wish that people i love. can give me some time. and be patient with me. i'll be good. i know he is there with me. i will get some help. and dear will be with me. god will be with me. and i'll show u a piece of my rainbow when i'm ready. he got me a super-chio-bling bling personalized bracelet. when we were in Kluang but of cos we have to ar- with the salesgirl bcos i wanteD the rabbit and flower locket but she wouldnt do it / couldnt do it. and other stuff he got me include the purple yankee cap. couple tees. from a teary eyed me. totally transform to a cheerful princess. TADA *PS: u can see almost ALL my pics revolve ard my workplace. so if u miss me, u know what to do right? ^_ wink i'm sleepy... suppose to do my Ass... but now... i think i shd sleep? Back to top, Babeh ! i guess... it's that hard to stop. Sunday, September 07, 2008 / Sunday, September 07, 2008 ♥ i am feeling really painful now.... help me. Back to top, Babeh ! blogging this in 5mins. Saturday, September 06, 2008 / Saturday, September 06, 2008 ♥ YOYOYO. OK LA I BLOG A CHEERFUL POST** well. i'm leaving home soon for work. again. bleahx.working real hard lately. all for the U.S trip. WELL. have to drop the idea of getting the Asus 1000H mini lappie. bleahx. since family members strongly OPPOSE to it. so wont be bringing any lappie over to the states. :((( bummers. BUT it's okay. told u i got FRIENDs. haha. prob can use their lappie 15mins each. so that's: 3 friends multipy 15mins usage time = 45mins. YAY kidding. but we'll prob be too tired to use the com all day long over there. right? just dont abandon me by mass msn-ing all day long. while i stare at the windows in the night. LOLX. anyway. my lamb should be getting me my portable hard-disk soon. and prob help me to fix my DESKTOP. IT SUCKS. VIRUS infested. so dont lend me anything okay. haha. might get it infested with lots of kaka. am going bonks soon. i've been depressing with him lately. bit siao. dont know where i got so much energy to depress every night after work LOLX. but yup we sat at the stairs and took loveydovey pictures in the end. WELL he realize that i may be really insecure abt our relationship... going 4 yrs alr... just by looking at blogs yakking away at their romantic one year relationship is enough to drove me to tears. emo bobo la. fcuk. i guessss... i really hate growing up. i am still a child. spoilt. grumpy. and forever wanting LOVE. so gimme. gimme. gimme. LOVE. & ice-cream. off to pack my luggage now. late for work liao. i'm going.... malaysia on sunday. do miss me PEEPS. who-so-ever. lastly. i wanna say i love.... mummmy, i ove u. dadddy, stop drinking and stop eating nasilemak every day. kor kor , even though yr such an asshole sometimes. and u barely listen to my words. but still. thanks for the credit card HAHA. i've got it man! WOOT jie jie, stop yakking at me. dear dear, i miss u. and the rest: Kai Kai, if ur reading this. and i know u will read this. i miss u. we all do, actually. yup. i hoped ur feeling better. and hoped we can go seaside SOON hahaha. ^_^ ong lishan, be strong. i love u v much. always and ever always do. no change. sompa* *JooJoo, promise to bring u out for food but yAaaa... see when la. SORRY! busy. tk good care okay. (stop buying WINTER CLOTHES!!!) lol.* kelly lim. :))) miss u so much.... dots... dont know when we'll meet. Irene CCF, stop showing brunei friends ard. never-ending. i shall bring u ard okay. Jess&OLS, congrats to yr newly open blog shop. sorry no money to buy now. shall help u promote the shop!! haha. anyway if i ever buy from u guys. mus drive over to my place to pass to me OKAY :P SHOP HERE: BUY BUY BUY!! http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ Back to top, Babeh ! just me. and my feelings. Tuesday, September 02, 2008 / Tuesday, September 02, 2008 ♥ painful thoughts. painful wounds. thou shall not hurt myself. thou shall not poke myself with a f*** thou shall not make mummy sad. thou shall not drive the bf mad. thou shall not be silly. thou shall not cry too much well... thou shall love myself more than ever. thou shall eat whatever i like. thou shall love me darling peeps. thou shall love my body and respect my life. thou shall hold faith close to thy heart. there's always sunshine and rainbows after the rain. right? somewhat. i dont know what's going on in ppl's life. and prob all who doesnt know what's in my life. i might be drifting away from mankind. from humanity. from anything that i can believe in. maybe i have alr stop believing. what i see could all be a facade. when i open my eyes, everything fades out to darkness. when i did what i did. it didnt hurt that much. i wasnt scared. it felt just like the past. the desperation that drove me to my edge. the agony the screams from my blood. what is hurting most is when i couldnt hear my own cries anymore. i couldnt hear you... couldnt feel the love... all is cold. there isnt any hope left. Back to top, Babeh !	Profile kaykay i love polly pockets and i believe i still live in them. i have scarlet dreams... sunnies87@hotmail.com I think folks carry on about heaven too much, like it's some kind of all you can eat buffet up in the clouds and folks just do as they told so they can eat what they want behind some pearly gates. There's sinning in my heart, there's evil in the world but when I got no one, I talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask for forgiveness, not peace at the end of my days when I got no more life to live or no more good to do but today, right now... What's your heaven?	I LUB U. Friday, September 26, 2008 / Friday, September 26, 2008 ♥ LOVE. :))) Back to top, Babeh ! random lovely positive thinking post. Thursday, September 25, 2008 / Thursday, September 25, 2008 ♥ HEE.GOT BACK MY PHONE. :)) I MISS BF. lol. Met him just now. showed him the BAG. we couldnt talk much as I was busy reading. sigh. teh-bing tog at the coffeeshop. And I couldnt stop talking about what I've learned in class today keke. I'm so annoying can. :D As usual, school is great. :) Heavy amt. of stress but learning is so enjoyable. though so much readings to do and I'm such a slow pok at times. I'm LOVING American Politics! YESt. celebrated Alan's bday! Had a Crabs affair. hee. shall blog when i post the pics bah. ps: daddy drank so much again. it affected me :( but in my positive mode, I' finished my sch work and did some readings lolx. Back to top, Babeh ! bcos... he says he loves me. Tuesday, September 23, 2008 / Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ♥ PS: i'm afraid. of him. of things happening between us. but i still love him the most. MY OFF DAY TODAY. woot. FINALLY send my hp for servicing. such a fruitful day with Joo & CCF. pretty babes :)zz as promised. food date with my Joo. Hongkong cafe. instead of miss dior cherie. dear sponsored my new puma bag for *our 4th yr anni.* so i can bring it to U.S hohoho. I LOVE IT!!! is been a long time since I've gone out for shopping? did nt spend much which is GOOD. did not buy any clothes :( fell in love with the Agnes.B locket necklace. best thing is... I enjoyed myself with the best company. muacks muacks muacks <3 MORNING CLASSES TMR. NEW MOD. HAIZ. AMERICAN POLITICS. HAIZ. i dont wish TO SCH. HAIZ. got to sleep. HAIZ night Back to top, Babeh ! everything? bottle it up. Friday, September 19, 2008 / Friday, September 19, 2008 ♥ hee. waited for mummy today... so she'll acc me for TEH-Bing at the coffeeshop. the spot where she read her newspaper. and i'll read my notes... supering with her..before i go msia that night: selegie beancurd! :))))) i love mummy. she believes in me. i dont feel good inside today. prob. becos i'm hearing too much things... i'm not letting it get to me. i believe i should experience anything myself before i pass any judgements. is hard to believe in people at times? but is beautiful to believe. 我不完美 i'm not perfect. but imperfection is a kind of beauty. no? :) good night world. exam tmr. work tmr. good luck! Back to top, Babeh ! i love my doggies. they help me to destRess / Friday, September 19, 2008 ♥ woof woof. bcos she hates the flash* grouchy* chi lantern fes: other pics other time. and previously on Aston some time ago... she drops by again. LOLX We tried the Cathay's branch :)) the end~ Back to top, Babeh ! Ee. i'm stressed and FAT. Monday, September 15, 2008 / Monday, September 15, 2008 ♥ 3.12 AM LE.. dotss... awww... dear surprised me just now. by downloading the CRAZY TAXI game for me and bring the PSP over. I just told him i love the game and he went to download for me le :))))))zzz tee hee* sadly. i still cant finish the assignment tonight. losing time. and i dont like this feeeeling. my com is virus infected. my hp...is spoilt. so dont even bother calling me cos i cant pick up. almost every button has cracked. my camera is failing me. my bed is bug-infested. i'm dying to shop... :((( feel so miserable now. i want my miss dior cherie perfume. I WANT la. and i didnt get to watch 4bia. mummy says she'll give me $$ for my bday gift in U.S hee. so i get to choose all my bday gifts over there. *After all,* *one thing i can be sure of....* i'm going to U.S and JAPAN. in ya...2 months time.... I'm really going.... this is reality ---->>>> sounds scary. and shoooo exciting!! :))) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am so tired. sleep deprived. wierd thoughts. big tummy. flabby arms. die. stress. food. stress. i love my mummy. love my doggies. the ass is killing me slowly n painfully. i miss my bf. he still not here yet. ROARRRRRR. i need to sleep again. the bed is just so delicious. 3 more qns to go... finish it! and i can start my revision sooooon. sat exam. no hope. sayonara~~ Back to top, Babeh ! N is for Nostalgia. Monday, September 08, 2008 / Monday, September 08, 2008 ♥ (been web-caming lolx, act emO, anyway i wld v much like to post up some webcam pics with jooo... but ya....but scared i might be strangled la* LOLX.) i'm thinking if i will get to finish this post? it seems hard to type a proper post when there are just... too many things going on at the same time. I' might jus slot this post into my drafts. and never let it see daylight. em' exhausted now... so bad that i'm practically typing away with half my eyelids closed. had a bit of drink last night...with him. we finally hit the sack at only 4am. Zzzzz aNyway. first thing first... Happy Lantern Festival ! f :))) mooncakes. i had my fair share of goodies this month. *with Goodwood park hotel durian mooncakes yum from korkor, and other snacks. 4-5 boxes of mOonCakes stacked at home. AND we're going chi garden later :)))** happy nah.. family...korkor.korgf. da jie. me.bf. and mummy... yupppps September love.birthday babies: Leon's sep 11. okie.. after being friends for so long... this is prob the first gift from me to him :) bleahz.... and i'm happy he love it so mucH! hmm... gosh. i counted...6 yrs of friendship alr. hee. from the small lil' heartwarming chat... is sweet to know that many things remain unchanged... like the beauty of the friendship and a person who knows u well. em touched Sister Kelly's 21st Bday white rose as symbolizm of elegance and purity of a love for my childhood bestie. :)) though many things have changed and even at times, we barely even meet anymore. But on that day. at that moment. when i see my happy girl... i know i love her :) Working Days: yest...slogging away.... sushi buffet with minyee. ahhh... chewy junior. ah bao delivers goodies* i love mini surprises :) playing taxi at work? noti.. :P jus for a while.. dinner treat from office boY. with the crazy babes. LASTnight, that wave of nostalgia hit us( dear dear n me)... when we open this dusty treasure chest of love. we started squealing in excitment, laughters as we page through...these sweet delights. :) albums of our photos, the first time we met, the first letter i wrote to him, the first xmas we spent, the KL trip, the Bangkok trip, Genting, ...the friends we have... they grow up with us. grow up with our relationship. there's a mountain of love letters we exchanged when i was at my adolecsent age of 15. the kind of letters we wrote 'at that time' : this line that goes...agar-a-tion from my memory yest: "recess now........." then ending off with "... ok, teacher come back liao. miss u. 5121314" well... the letter was dated year 2003. vintage man~~~~. and there's a collection of Princess movie tix during our 'poor' school days, recalling the slide show aDs and seats that felt just like sbs bus seats. 15 going almost 22 soon. well... 8 yrs of 'stuff'... my dear.... is the man who has walk with me through the years. and none could ever replace such memories. yr my best friend :) the bestest of all... who knows every single bit of me. every sin. every past. every good. every happiness. every joy. every tear... and still love me unconditionally....always. Last week: WallE with Kai so long never meet le :( beng dropped by... treat me donut. yum yum. Sep07 the silly buta did something bad to herself again. dear was harsh at me... for not listening to him. for always not listening to him. sigh. it feels so hard to carry on sometimes... there's just too many times i'm gonna fail myself. i'm always out of control. and i dont like myself to be like this. i wanna be strong. i wanna give love to many..... :(((( i know it may seems bit difficult to understand me.. many have alr abandon me calling me crazy, perhaps ppl find it hard to attend to me. my erractic moods which they claim as sensitive, unreasonable, or even AA. if i could. i wouldnt be crying n tearing till my throat once bleed when i was in pri sch. i may be sick... but i'm definitely not crazy. hurling such words at me... is enough to break my frail little small heart. i wish that people i love. can give me some time. and be patient with me. i'll be good. i know he is there with me. i will get some help. and dear will be with me. god will be with me. and i'll show u a piece of my rainbow when i'm ready. he got me a super-chio-bling bling personalized bracelet. when we were in Kluang but of cos we have to ar- with the salesgirl bcos i wanteD the rabbit and flower locket but she wouldnt do it / couldnt do it. and other stuff he got me include the purple yankee cap. couple tees. from a teary eyed me. totally transform to a cheerful princess. TADA *PS: u can see almost ALL my pics revolve ard my workplace. so if u miss me, u know what to do right? ^_ wink i'm sleepy... suppose to do my Ass... but now... i think i shd sleep? Back to top, Babeh ! i guess... it's that hard to stop. Sunday, September 07, 2008 / Sunday, September 07, 2008 ♥ i am feeling really painful now.... help me. Back to top, Babeh ! blogging this in 5mins. Saturday, September 06, 2008 / Saturday, September 06, 2008 ♥ YOYOYO. OK LA I BLOG A CHEERFUL POST** well. i'm leaving home soon for work. again. bleahx.working real hard lately. all for the U.S trip. WELL. have to drop the idea of getting the Asus 1000H mini lappie. bleahx. since family members strongly OPPOSE to it. so wont be bringing any lappie over to the states. :((( bummers. BUT it's okay. told u i got FRIENDs. haha. prob can use their lappie 15mins each. so that's: 3 friends multipy 15mins usage time = 45mins. YAY kidding. but we'll prob be too tired to use the com all day long over there. right? just dont abandon me by mass msn-ing all day long. while i stare at the windows in the night. LOLX. anyway. my lamb should be getting me my portable hard-disk soon. and prob help me to fix my DESKTOP. IT SUCKS. VIRUS infested. so dont lend me anything okay. haha. might get it infested with lots of kaka. am going bonks soon. i've been depressing with him lately. bit siao. dont know where i got so much energy to depress every night after work LOLX. but yup we sat at the stairs and took loveydovey pictures in the end. WELL he realize that i may be really insecure abt our relationship... going 4 yrs alr... just by looking at blogs yakking away at their romantic one year relationship is enough to drove me to tears. emo bobo la. fcuk. i guessss... i really hate growing up. i am still a child. spoilt. grumpy. and forever wanting LOVE. so gimme. gimme. gimme. LOVE. & ice-cream. off to pack my luggage now. late for work liao. i'm going.... malaysia on sunday. do miss me PEEPS. who-so-ever. lastly. i wanna say i love.... mummmy, i ove u. dadddy, stop drinking and stop eating nasilemak every day. kor kor , even though yr such an asshole sometimes. and u barely listen to my words. but still. thanks for the credit card HAHA. i've got it man! WOOT jie jie, stop yakking at me. dear dear, i miss u. and the rest: Kai Kai, if ur reading this. and i know u will read this. i miss u. we all do, actually. yup. i hoped ur feeling better. and hoped we can go seaside SOON hahaha. ^_^ ong lishan, be strong. i love u v much. always and ever always do. no change. sompa* *JooJoo, promise to bring u out for food but yAaaa... see when la. SORRY! busy. tk good care okay. (stop buying WINTER CLOTHES!!!) lol.* kelly lim. :))) miss u so much.... dots... dont know when we'll meet. Irene CCF, stop showing brunei friends ard. never-ending. i shall bring u ard okay. Jess&OLS, congrats to yr newly open blog shop. sorry no money to buy now. shall help u promote the shop!! haha. anyway if i ever buy from u guys. mus drive over to my place to pass to me OKAY :P SHOP HERE: BUY BUY BUY!! http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ http://theluxehouse.livejournal.com/ Back to top, Babeh ! just me. and my feelings. Tuesday, September 02, 2008 / Tuesday, September 02, 2008 ♥ painful thoughts. painful wounds. thou shall not hurt myself. thou shall not poke myself with a f*** thou shall not make mummy sad. thou shall not drive the bf mad. thou shall not be silly. thou shall not cry too much well... thou shall love myself more than ever. thou shall eat whatever i like. thou shall love me darling peeps. thou shall love my body and respect my life. thou shall hold faith close to thy heart. there's always sunshine and rainbows after the rain. right? somewhat. i dont know what's going on in ppl's life. and prob all who doesnt know what's in my life. i might be drifting away from mankind. from humanity. from anything that i can believe in. maybe i have alr stop believing. what i see could all be a facade. when i open my eyes, everything fades out to darkness. when i did what i did. it didnt hurt that much. i wasnt scared. it felt just like the past. the desperation that drove me to my edge. the agony the screams from my blood. what is hurting most is when i couldnt hear my own cries anymore. i couldnt hear you... couldnt feel the love... all is cold. there isnt any hope left. 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