Tagboard Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same? Tuesday, January 29, 2008 / Tuesday, January 29, 2008 ♥
being....Insignificant the skies are grey... Monday, January 28, 2008 / Monday, January 28, 2008 ♥
Bcos u hurt me. i'm on the edge now. bursting into tears and tearing my hair out. I dont know how much do people understands me. becos i dont myself. but dont jump to conclusion on whats bothering me and purely look at the surface of all things. I'm not a complicated person.... is the things ard me that are complicated. to the b*tch: so u think spewing vulgarities at me are yr best ways of self expressions? and what did i do wrong? standing there savouring my own box of chocolates. my very own. can i ever be treated as a human being with respect? i cannot deny i have feelings too... i cant just ignore this. cos i'm facing it every day of my life. what dont u f off. my life. i no longer know how to be forgiving. teach me!!!!! / Monday, January 28, 2008 ♥
2.36Am i am emo-ing. it was a bad day. not a bady day. but i feel bad inside. nothing much to emo about. but still i ' cant help it! maybe is the post-exam-blues. or the unbelivable crowds that is swarmming around town lately. the shopping is so forth done. but un-done. rant rant rant. rant those BLuEs away. tomorrow will. be. a. happier. day ciaos Friday, January 25, 2008 / Friday, January 25, 2008 ♥
on a disturbing morning. when the pipe man come n drill holes in my toilet. -__- so i no longer need to bathe in icey cold water everyday. my heater is now 90% recovered.. jus that the water not v hot?? DEPrived of sleep drrrriiiilllling: ANYWAY hee. I've got pressies from my lil'bestie.. a good thing in a sunny morning out of all. i love this magical golden box a lot : TADA* presenting u with THE BOX  i miss the naive/mean times when we were 13... going 21 now. sometimes i wish i could turn back time. there are so much memories left there... feel like i am still living in the past like a kid. and u u u.. sad that u didnt make it to the party. =(((( real sad* is not the gifts that matters. ur physical body being there is impt! u should know ur importance in my life kae kae. but u u u better make it up for me for another date soon. LoVe u Kel - ps: anyway the dresses fit me really well lolx. and i really like like like like it !!! =) thanks for coming down and all. being my gd old pal for 9 yrs isnt easy. lolx. <3 this is a hmm nice pic lolx. where the whole gang force me to unwrap the present... tee hee* so sweet  unwrapping the gift... LOL so nervous.. with so many of u all watching / Friday, January 25, 2008 ♥
 this is a story abt liang teh and friendship. shall be told after the exams hahhaa. Wednesday, January 23, 2008 / Wednesday, January 23, 2008 ♥
 adapted from www.valesandtines.blogspot.com --> intro by shanshan. so guys...start saving $$ now! hee* bcos i love this pic. i cant help to 'cope' from the website. lol. some feel of inner peace it gives me =)... humans are funny beings. can take eons to understand them. yet. sometimes 10 mins of talkin to someone(prolly a stranger) heart2heart. many perspectives can change. only when you... take the step to listen. watched 27 dresses last night. dont know why but it feels more like a story between the sisters. just like "in her shoes" mainly abt being selfish. or being selfless. it does make you being excited abt getting married :) ps: the true ones stay...indeed Sunday, January 20, 2008 / Sunday, January 20, 2008 ♥
I'M 21!!!! groans* lolx. 8 PM aLR. jus woke up from my sleep. Oo... ( read my heart. i'm touched! so overwhelmed with emotions now ) though i know a great number didnt turn up. eventually the party went well with quite a no. of people who made it in the end~ oh ya judging from the gifts... i think i am still a kid in ur heartss =P with the wonderful cuties stuff like the white/pink colourBaby G from dear, purple psp pounch from dear, pink Ds Lite from kor, white carousel from Ma & hello kitty delights i've got from some peeps! I LOVE LOVE IT ! and others think i'm ready to brave the world with more matured gifts like the leather wallet, vouchers ya ^_*lol! Ehh.. haha i got a number of white, purple and pink stuffs. thanks for remembering my fav colour too. Ahem. So touched. lol... this is probably the most no. of times i hear peeps singing the bday song..for me. okay i'm getting long winded in here... but i mus mus say this: I have MANY BIG THANKS TO SAY FIRST: (in random order) THANKS to my family: i love u all. for being there. is incomplete. missing people. missing pieces. missing love...but is okay. to daphne: hoped u love the gift from me too. to kor kor: thanks for making it there. with the ultra cutie ds lite with all the games properly uploaded lol. so loved!! to the BF Pensiewyoung for the SWEAT n EFFort; yr so hardworking throughout the entire night making sure everything went well... and then u pull out a gift from my closet.. -_-the v surprise birthday gift at my place ^_* to my Brothers: Alan,Jackson,Ahbao who carried all the stuff. travel back n forth. the decos. & to Boon,Hong,Lolly for rushing down (nt in time) for the cut cake. but still. i'm already v touched!!!! Hong. thanks for rushing down i know u v stressed alr. lolx. dont fall sick. u are my big brother! & thanks for the Adidas bag from u guys ( my bag not old n tattered leh not so bad) =P Lub it.* Sista Kerren for coming down so early to help out. accompany me. cam-whore. and being my utmost supportive asistant in lookin after the peeps. & fetching ppl to n fro from the gate. thanks for being e asistant angel ok hahaha! & e super big kawaii gift from u n irene. so sweet!!! i love the cards really. . . u guys are v impt to me. thank u 0612A ppl!! JOooo, Joyce, Irene for taking 1 million pics for me/with/of me. I felt bad tiring u guys out constantly stand by with the cams and helping me with the photographing. Joo..you have been one of the sweetest/thoughtful gf/neighbour.. i really appreciate every small lil' thing u do. Irene: my lovely super girl. thank u for everything. for nt sleeping =P n so busy helping me that u cant eat one chicken wing in peace. Kerren:hee. sorry didnt acc u guys to the MAC-d. my legs were breaking alr. lolx. i love u peeps. Joycie: my cutie. thank u for all the photos and being in the photos =PP heart heart u. Jooo, Mr.&Mrs Poh,JY,Ain,Pamela,Khoi,Greg,Josephine,Chiuyun for the sweet thoughtful purple gift. hee. blushing as i unwrapped the gift infront of u all.. damm paiseh la! haha.. u guys jus wanna make me cry right. thnks Pandora too for gift w ur specially personalized wrapper!thank u Durga for coming down and the gift is so prettily wrapped! :) thank u Esther&Cheryl for the gift vouchers as well. & Esther for being my first guest to reach on the dot! 10Q 10Q! thnk ain. i hoped u get well soon =) (PaUSE* out for dinner) i'm back... continue: to 4E4 peeps. THANK U ! my usual kahkis yy&hw. thanks for e cute bag ^_^ xiaohei CJ for driving all of them down! E-heng.J Lim. ED Teo. =) thanks for coming down giving me warmest wishes and e beautiful box of chocolates. & a very heartwarming phonecall from KokRui...reminding me of e guardian angel game..then surprise me again in e night. i'm v touched. thanks..u know we guys dont really keep in contacts etc.. thnks for e effort time. rushing down.. (omg. my contents was wiped out.. i have to pause here) =((( thanks to sweetiepie Jess. miss cinderella for staying late n having to take cab back.. u r a blessing in my life. always so sweet and everything. still rem the rockin horse earrings from me last yr? though i lost my side alr. but rem ur my other part. i miss u babe. =)) love. thnks for the lovely beautiful globe frm u n missonglishan. lolx. i will keep it properlY. to my dear dance mate Chenda: thnks for coming down and all. being a wonderful date mate n companion=) hugs* to tanwenqi&andy. huiling.alina. Ed : i love u babes oKay!! qiqi. thanks for the lovely packaging n ultra cute-yellow poka-dots-dress it fits me really well. =) not jus that. but being e sweet gf in my life. talking / sharing/ finding me during troubled times shows a lot.. u know what i mean my girl. thanks. to the solos: YanFang. i'm sorry to leave u alone. u came a long way to finding the place. still ur presence make a difference =) love e dolphins! & Beng for being a great bro for the past 6 yrs for caring and taking care of me thanks! ^_^ to Ferlyn&bf&Sherlyn: Engloo! haha. pretty babe. sorry couldnt entertain u.thanks for everything. n the Pretty-silver-kEy frm u guys! last but not least. my jeraldonglishan: who couldnt make it for the cake. but thanks for singing the ultra-loud-bday-song malu in the Cab over the phone for me. hahha.. i almost teared. almost la. haha. two silly dorks who can make me smile laugh anywhere. thanks jer for the big chupachup and the peeps - kerren,jer,jackass,lolly fooling ard in the longwinded boring uno game with only yellow n green coloured cards. Jer. i know u v tired. haha. ur neck almost break n ur eyes almost went blind right sitting so close to the tv. and rushing home to paint ur house hor. thnks for spending the night there accompanying me with limited beds. haha. i love u guys. to AaronInstantKarma: lolx. i've got ur gift. the box is very beautiful personally decorated by you right ^_^ i love everything abt it. but i wished you came...and see my wings. i flew!! i hoped u are alright. didnt reply any of my sms. tk care ok love my onglishan! thanks for reaching with ur dork specs haha. for spending time with me. and bathing with me on my bday night. LEsbo Sickko!! hahha for playing with me. hugging me. sleeping with me freezing with me throughout the entire night hee* and for travelling all the way back to ur wild wildWEST Hee* ( i.o.u) i miss u already. i wanna sleep with u more. side by side. and talk abt everything in the night. i will polish the globe everyday till i get married i'll prized it at my home then because... yes good friends are forever... =))) then we guys (me, u, jess,irene,kerren, jooo) all shall be neighbours.. haha. okay i side tracked a bit.. =P to leon: thks for giving me the advanced bday gift specially delivered to my place personally. ^_^ the thoughts n wishes are well received. i'm glad to have u as my friend too silly buddy. though time drift people apart. the goodness stays in all of us. to kwl: thanks for the call all the way from NewYorkCity. YaDa! haa.. dont have to say so much. i can read the heart. haha. come back soon la..smacko!! thank u people for making my 21st a smashing one. without ur help. & love. it wouldnt such an awesome party right? haha. the sweetest sms. thoughts. wishes. and everything else. unexpected events are plenty. those who couldnt make it..i'm sure u all got e reasons. but i appreciate ur warmest love ^_^ thank you jus doesnt seems enough to say it all... is not just the gifts etc. i think is the way u make me feel...i teared a bit lately... thinking about all of you. . . i think i am getting emo. but i really love u all. thanks... 0612A who are all mugging now for the sat exam. good lucK! LOVE. ting Labels: i Wednesday, January 16, 2008 / Wednesday, January 16, 2008 ♥
 the <3 from mummy. there's always love... between me and her. yet. sometimes... there's abit abt the past* that tore people apart* from each other. affections are growing... the closeness i felt now. is like .. i'm still the baby in her tummy. so connected. so close. nothing else matters anymore. i really dont wish to grow up... i wanna be the kid in her heart. i want her by my side... so loved <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Sunday, January 13, 2008 / Sunday, January 13, 2008 ♥
I'm BACK! these few days have been bustling with so many no. of events. my ears are still failing me. but no worries. i will be a strong man soon! though i fear of falling sick. will make an appointment with the pc then refer me to the hos; thanks peeps for caring. some hipcups during the trip during evening, my ears hurt like hell; couldnt enjoy secret recipe/shopping =(( i'm sorry i' might bit pek cek at that moment cos i really cant hear. and will emo at any second of the day. thnk for being patient..nlovely. u guys r sooo nice .. 2 lovely pics to share lolx  i <3 yang  the hottt peeps stay tune for more... ps: jeraldonglishan u are being missed. onglishan! tk good care of ur 100000 degree shortsighted eyes. god bless! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR HAPPY! and happy bday to my 2 lovely cousins cherie/daphne and sally aunt =) Friday, January 11, 2008 / Friday, January 11, 2008 ♥
 L.O.V.3 some time ago. we left a secret somewhere. i feel that magic now. again. bf is sooo love. mushy mushy. Wednesday, January 09, 2008 / Wednesday, January 09, 2008 ♥
i'm nervous about being... 21 as the days come nearer. i dont know what to expect. / Wednesday, January 09, 2008 ♥
i blew 41 bucks on medication and consultation etc. OHHhhhhhhh. damm sad. but ya for health. they pratically dragged me to the docs. my ears are again badly infected bcos i blew my nose. =(((~~~ SOBX busy planning alot of stuff lately. mum bought me a new top.. damm pretty. so happy. i think she really loves me lately. lol night Tuesday, January 08, 2008 / Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ♥
2007 has been much easier to walk on. due to many wonderful friends that have put their foot into my life. i've learnt that many changes are to come by and all we can do is to accept it. or to let it go. yest. there was a unprecedented test going on.. me and this friend. he never fails to let me down. but i'm strong enough to distant myself and not plunge into this dark hole that will drain my energy further. is amazing how different people treats u or value u... those you try hard to hold on, will still continue to let u down. on the other sides. i've received warmest msgs. thoughtful words. caring love. shouldnt let one bad thing spoil my entire day? for myself. i've havent been the best of friend to all. i've probably forgotten abt ur bdays. wasnt there for u at the darkest moments. didnt attend impt functions of yrs. took you for granted. rejected ur calls. ignored ur msgs. put a foot in ur life and didnt walk with u. any of the above. or i've probably hurt you along the way unknowingly. do forgive me. and call me. . . / Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ♥
on the 5th day of sickness. i still havent rree- cover. MC from work today. the loneliness streak is getting to me. i cant help but feel like shouting at him over the phone. darn ns. stupid !@#!%$#^#$! ur gf is sick. get ur ass here quick. =X assignment is abt 30% done. so ya. but keep me inside this square box. is alr driving me nuts. i feel FAT too. no i am FAT. i wish all those well wishes can heal me up now. i'm deprived of shopping.... =((((( i am really not an unhappy girl. i shall dress up and go somewhere.... Monday, January 07, 2008 / Monday, January 07, 2008 ♥
bcos i'm bored...FREAKING BORED. ILL. i'm lucky. haha to have my supajoooo staying jus opposite me. if not i've already starve myself to death and sob my eyes out cos damm emo me dont want to ta bao or eat alone weee* NOW. I'm FREAKING BORED. have alot of work on my mind... i decided to go back to 2007 :  at cine. guess who?  a free photo for us @Bishan  how low tech the guys r..  Imitation Jay.  chinese jordan  DaredevIl  Shan's candybox  gift of the year07  cookie dough  wine.  3Dpopupcard. from dear =) reminds me of happiness.. thanks. we'll watch the snow some day..  gingy on his wheels.   ultimate love. PS: dont like the bf these days cos i think he dont like me too. hmm. strange.alot of things have changed and beyond our control. still i wish things will be fine. ya we still love each other. but love is quite complicated as it is simple hahaha. contradicting yaaaaaaa Sunday, January 06, 2008 / Sunday, January 06, 2008 ♥
ANYBODY HOME?  I AM SEVERELY ILL. home alone with piles of school work. piles of clothings. piles of sickness within me. cough* cough* i badly wanna swim and feel the sun on my skin. lest' i do nt faint and die some where. okaayy.. plans have been made for 19th. once again i wanna invite those i love. those who care n have the heart to come. hahahha. this is kinda my v last celebration. just in case the msgs did not get to u so plz read here: my ex classmates all are invited if u still rem me. okay and of cos BMCD1 0612A including DEE. JER.- whole class is invited okay. do help me spread the word bcos sad to say i have lost most of hp contacts in my hp. venue is at downtown east starting from 6.30pm. contact me for moree details. do tell me if ur coming so i can prepare MORE food anyway ppl keep coming to suggest themes for bash. but ya.. haha. i'm abit too tired abt it? but of cos. if got any suitable themes. might be fun hor. lol okay have to get back to work. ciaos Friday, January 04, 2008 / Friday, January 04, 2008 ♥
i want to.. rant! THIS is SUPER BAD> i'm damm ill. damm unwell. damm unlucky. damm moody. mY throat hurts. i need a hug. i need to de-stress. i feel like a withering rose. this feeling sucks. so bad so bad. duhz. =((((((((((((((( SOBX XO XO Wednesday, January 02, 2008 / Wednesday, January 02, 2008 ♥
this is what girl friends do when they skipped sch =X SHOPPING  Tuesday, January 01, 2008 / Tuesday, January 01, 2008 ♥
2008. NewYearEve. it was hard deciding where to go because everyone has multiple options. the idea of squeezing in the crowds for the fireworks- o' soTHRILLING. nahx. and the best friend has to fly my aeroplane and decided to go PLAY =X stupid jerald. ok laa. dont scold u on new yr =) duhx. Aaron has to fall ill too. the bf on duty and that leaves me on my own. i re-counted the no. of people joining me in the party and there was me n you. unexpectedly. i manage to form a crowd out of various peeps.  the cathay v chiong party tentnage thingy with v chiong beer. the whole event wasnt happening... and a great disappointment to me. the peeps include the boss ah tan who turns out to be a v good n smiley companion. my v sweetie darling kerren who accompanied me for dinner and waited so patiently at starbucks for me to end work. ah bao and boon who came down to acc me too. with a bunch of ppl and thanks to bao who is v concern abt my safety when i decided to go ktv-ing with kerren n housemates. offering to send me home at any time. =P i am very touched. thanks. JUST when i thought that everything was bad... it turned out pretty good. with me n kerren roaming the streets hand in hand to chinatown for ktv session. we were pretty crazy such as trying to dig out money from drains. such luck! and wishing ppl happy new yr =))  crazy us in the ktv rooms.  this is me. getting high on e streets after singing ktv till 4 am alr. 1/2 seh~  more beer. alcoholic drinks. mee pok. prawn mee. drank till 7 am. and slept till 9am only. faint* this is the very lovely silly girl who made me smile throughout the night. muacks. ur the first gf that i stayed over and to me is so exciting to start my 2008 like this. thanks! you make me feel so loved. like a sister to me. <3> PS: GOODBYE 2007. great memories. great friends. brothers. sisters. i am so loved by plenty and i love a plenty of people. i wish to love u all more. always. ever. shall think of my new yr resolution when i'm freee. ciaos | |
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